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When hate turns love

2012-02-16T22:35:00.002+08:00

When hate turns love

There is a Chinese saying (I think) that’s goes something like this “ don’t go hate something, you might just love the thing”.. well whatever it is, I called it karma. It is the same when you don’t like certain feature on the opposite sex, beware. Your husband might just be that. The Korean dramas are ALWAYS like that?? The hero and heroine always bickering with each other but opposite attraction is always stronger..

anyway, i had this weird dream yesterday. a guy from a boyband that i really hate appeared on my dream. ok just reveal it..taec and khun appeared on my dream. trust me they are the last people in my list to like because they from the stupid pm group. you should know why i hate them..

not the point: why idol appeared on my dream? im not those who dreamt of artiste..

the point: they are a symbolic.

well, he was trying really hard to please me. i forgot what he did but i know/feel he is trying hard. it wasnt like he is someone i like to remember everything about him so you get the point now.. someone i dont like someone i dont keep in mind someone i dont even look at is trying hard to grab my attention. and he wins. he got it NOW. im freaking blogging for him.

so i was thinkin, is this person gonna appear soon?? now that i got the hint i will keep my eyes open for you. i promise. :)

band-aid

2012-02-16T21:09:00.001+08:00

well at least it is back to function..not as good as it used to be but it was not dysfunctional so no complain =)

well a bandage is not gonna make you look pretty but on a brighter side it will make you get better..so suck it up, bloggie..at least i figured it out that there was some bastard out there messed you up. it wasnt my fault that someone tried to post some fucked-up stuff on you..

now you are back...most of the stuff gone and you went green, literally all green..but no worries :) i will put back those stuff one by one and get you all dolled up k? pinky promise..

forgotten

2012-02-12T02:22:00.003+08:00

i think i have forgotten how to love a person.
how to miss a person. and how to tell the person that you really like them..
it's been years..since i put a person importance in my heart and brain.

some said im too picky, even cousin brother said i am the kind that like handsome guy..
even i disapprove..and how do all this people know me better than myself.
but cousin brother adds more.. better be picky than to pick the one that cant afford.

love isnt all

according to him.. isnt that making things worse??

anyway happy valentine..

p.s to my love-> where are you?? faster get yourself a gps and come find me..i am still waiting.

2012-02-01T16:09:00.000+08:00

Christmas over!!

New year over!!

Chinese new year over!!

Whats next??

Sent from Samsung Mobile

2012-02-01T12:50:00.000+08:00

My my..the day is so sunny..

It makes me feels so warm in my heart...

And it sorta reminds me of LA..

(yea, los angeles..i never been there and yeah, totally irrelevant)

Sent from Samsung Mobile

Register

2012-01-31T00:52:00.001+08:00

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Hello

2012-01-31T00:50:00.001+08:00

I'm testing again...

gong hei !!!

2012-01-22T14:54:00.000+08:00

that explain the red striking background..

hearing voices

2011-12-26T02:48:00.003+08:00

ok i know this is going to be really weird and probably scary...it wasnt even halloween, it is freaking christmas for ghost story...

i have this weird encounter and it actually happened for quite a handful times but most of the times, i just ignored it. but not for this most recent incident and it happened twice. MOST important part, i am not alone.

on the 22nd i take leave and went back hometown to have reunion dinner with my family and while on it, take a break off the stress. and while enjoying my day at home, i was playing with my niece with my 2nd sister watching. and i suddenly heard my mom called me. so i went over to the window (she is at outside) and asked her why she called me. to my surprise, she said she didnt call me. obviously i wasnt happy with that answer because i DID heard her calling and i argued with her that she DID called my name. and she said she DIDNT call for me. trying to push it aside with the thought i probably heard it wrongly but my sister suddenly said she heard someone calling me too..

freaky right...fret not, thats not the first time. the other time, she also heard someone called my name and the same answer from my mom (i heard she called me) but apparently she DID NOT..

so i went and google-ed it. yes, you can try google "hearing voice calling name" or anything similar and voila, you will get a freaky answer. but let me point out the difference here.

1. i heard my MOM called me, meaning i can identify her voice instead of a random person calling like those on google's claimed.

2. i have my sister hearing the same thing like i did. those on google heard it in their ears alone and so they think they are crazy. (but then it happened to me also, when i was small)

and so i still doesnt get an answer that convinced me..

its december

2011-12-12T23:09:00.003+08:00

christmas is here........the celebration time is around the corner...i dont think i can make it to get everyone a present so i decided to delay it to new year presents...what a bummer..

but then i done something major to this bloggie..something so major that i have never done to her.

first of all the background colour. i never strayed away from white, black and pink...but this time special !! green.

secondly, the music player.. it has always the same since a long time ago til i decided to try this player. it is easier to load and it only play one song.. and guess what song it is playing??? yes it is INFINITE - WHITE CONFESSION (LATELY)

thirdly, i got the html done..so you will see snowflakes and snow falling..yes, there are two types of snow falling. peel your eyes big and you will see it :D

ok MERRY CHRISTMAS in advance..just in case :P

songs of the week #2

2011-12-05T19:18:00.002+08:00

this is for last week, i just the energy to do anything update last week, just because i spent the weekend at home...oh i think that is last last week..last week, im bust de-stressing myself with shopping and movies (at home) .. anyway here is the playlist. i promise you this is something awesome...

1.
Edwina Hayes - Feels like Home

2.
Bii

ok thats all for now..ciao..

jay-lousy

2011-11-21T22:34:00.002+08:00

oppsie, it sounds like jay is lousy..but i meant jealousy... :( and i AM......

anyway good news come first :P yeah to streamyx, finally got it installed for kl home so now im connected to the world *peace sign* wuahahahaha and trust me i actually complimented tmnet for their excellent work.. i just give them a call, customer service that is, to ask some questions and the next thing is they called me and helped me with registration without anything. no deposit no IC required. the next day the contractor called and said they are coming -__- talking about no job... but bleh, got it done and yeah !! good job anyway, streamyx.. did i just said i love you?? yes i did.

anyway bad news... i clicked on the red button on the upper right side of the browser before i finished watching jay park's new mv 'girlfriend'...yes talking about me the jealous fan....

yes i hate that part....more im jay-lous...thats all :P

songs of the week

2011-11-19T16:38:00.002+08:00

if you follow me on my blog, i think you would have realized that songs & music make part of me...i am not a musician or someone who can sing but they existed in me..

and for this week (i planned to share with you all songs that i listened to, for at least once a week)

#1

lets not start on my craze on shinhwa or any shinhwa's member..it will goes on for days..

#2

there is nothing that can beat a good voice and RnB...hmm maybe wrong timing to debut. he wasnt that famous til he formed Aziatic with the others.. but his voice is pure love..

#3

and i really love this version. must be something to do with the boys and i prefer this version because it is less 'heavy' than girl voice.. i am not sure how to explain the meaning of 'heavy' but then there is something with girl's voice that i usually dont like..

one's limit

2011-11-17T21:21:00.002+08:00

there are so much that you want to do but there is only that much you can do.
wanted to do well but there is a limit that i can.
the endless boundaries that people was hoping you can put it up
but there is so little that you can.

i dont know why people have expectation in me, when i don't even have it for me.
i know deep inside that i am not meant to do this, but every day i dying slowly.

i cry when i feel tired, i cry when i feel exhausted,
i cry when i feel down, i cry when i can't go on,
i speak harshly to them when they call me, i cry when the phone is off
i regretted what i did but it doesn't help.

why it is so hard? trying to just make a living??
make because of 'expectation'???

Nice quote

2011-11-17T09:23:00.001+08:00

"we cannot make people wait for a bus that is never going to turn up"

dream 101

2011-11-10T19:11:00.003+08:00

i vaguely remember. the only scene i remember;

i was practically nagging at him, for taking his own sweet time to the hotel
(even i got shocked, watching myself nagging...i was thinking hell, i can nag..)
↓
i got angry but excited for some reason, so i left him walking by himself
↓
when i got to the 'hotel room' i got so shock..
(trust me when i said it doesnt even look slightest like a hotel but there is no way to illustrates it, so lets forget about that part. no significance i guess)
↓
i went around asking for my room keys, if any (but then who will have it, yeah, thank bf for making me a fool)
↓
he FINALLY reach and still taking his sweet time
↓
more nagging and grumbling from me
(now i openly admits that i NAG like a grandma)
↓
i asked him to walk faster to bathroom and that i need to clip my hair first
↓
and then my 2nd sis was saying something and i replied 'really ma, i need to clip my hair.'
↓
his friends were making a joke by taking my ribbon hairclip and put it on 2 strangers head..and he was smiling :) NOT laughing
(you know, smirking. weird because i can't see his face but i can tell he is smirking and not laughing. my sixth sense told me that)
↓
i got irritated so i grabbed it back and put it on my towel which i wrapped on my waist.
(no idea why though)
↓
then suddenly the two strangers tried to pull up my towel (as in to peep) and pull off my skirt ->
i shouted TWICE for him but the weird part i shouted his name as 'tiger'
(yes is tiger and twice because i remember it well. ian said nice nickname -__-|||)
↓
it only took him seconds to hear it and there he came, just threw a punch to one of the stranger
(not a good reaction, meaning he thinks with his fists, not brain)

i'm pretty sure the 'tiger' and 'twice' mean something. i just can't figure it out yet. maybe because my brain is pretty tuned up with works.. and this dream means a lot to me because it has been something since i dreamt of something, waking up to heavy heartbeats and remember the details so well...

so dead.

2011-11-06T19:13:00.002+08:00

i have been inspired by certain blogs that i have been following for some times but i am pretty sure i failed. big time.

for example, this blog. i love how the blog is filled by pictures taken by the blog owner. and purely picture. no need for more words.

the same goes to this blog. they got so much activities going on and taking really pretty pictures..

and what makes me failed big time, is they are using manual camera..

and what sadden me, is that they got nice pretty pictures...and all i have is xuen's picture..
:(

i promise

2011-10-24T00:39:00.001+08:00

...that i wont cry again, at least for tonight
i will hold it in
even if chopper is crying his heart out for his doctor
i wont cry.
not AGAIN FOR TONIGHT.

will be missed dearly...

2011-10-23T22:47:00.001+08:00

although she is now in a better place
but the tears wont stop falling..
i love you, forever..

did i or did i not..

2011-10-18T19:00:00.004+08:00

did i or did i not tell you that i AM freaking in love, like super in love with INFINITE...

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
and i never like the whole album by listening to the tracks one by one.
most of the times, i will skipped one or two tracks so most of the time i dont listen to the cd.
i just put the tracks i listened to into pendrive and played it in car.
but i really love this album, to the MAX..

01.OVER THE TOP
02.내꺼하자 (Be Mine)
03.파라다이스 (Paradise)
04.Cover Girl
05.3분의 1 (1/3)
06.Tic Toc
07.Julia
08.Because (Sungkyu Solo)
09.시간아 (Woohyun Solo) (Time)
10.Amazing
11.Crying (Infinite H Feat. Baby Soul)
12.Real Story
13.내꺼하자 (Remix Ver.)

actually this album is not that much different from Over the Top. only added 3 more songs

1. Over the Top

a very good intro song. to make a 'bang bang' entrance for a performance or concert.
for example, like this
∨

*woot woot*

02.내꺼하자 (Be Mine)

i dont think i need to say anymore for this song.
epic.
the reason of today's history

03.파라다이스 (Paradise)

the same goes to this song
im in paradise already.
and this is the very song that brought them to the height of paradise of fame.

04.Cover Girl

Something to look forward; yeol’s rapping.

05.3분의 1 (1/3)

This is another surprise song that I wasn’t paying attention to in the first place.

Til I heard them singing on the radio.

06.Tic Toc

My favourite part was when Dongwoo goes ‘tic toc tic toc’…

The only performance of this song.. J

07.Julia

The song that came out a lot in sesame player

08.Because (Sungkyu Solo)

Search for the English sub yourself !!

I freaking love this mv..

09.시간아(Time) (Woohyun Solo)

L that’s the only time he performed this song..

10.Amazing

Let’s just say that I love the whole song, I love it so much that I can’t even choose which part I love the most..

^______^ I totally love the rap part..freaking cute when he just burst out laughing..

11.Crying (Infinite H Feat. Baby Soul)

I think it is not too much to say that this is definitely my favourite track in the whole album

My favourite boys in this track + hip hop style + sad lyric

That is just <3

12.Real Story

The song that I keep playing,

Because I can’t make out whose is who’s voice..

Did I just freaking show that I love them. Oh shit I think I did, but hell I’m proud. Haha for some reason.

ps. Anyway this post is composed much later than the two up there. For the reason posted up there, I have been having some hard time, thus delay. An excuse also for my procrastination.

bath-tub

2011-10-18T00:22:00.004+08:00

there must be something really off or wrong with the word 'bath-tub' there...

let me explain;
my hobby is to search on pictures whenever i feel like, and used it for my twitter background, desktop background, handphone background, whatever background, you name it.. and the theme depends on mood. most of the time; random pick. and today i really want to look for picture for twitter background. and i wanted picture of garden wedding reception. to which i unable to search for something that fulfill what i wanted.

so then, i move on with another theme; red sofa. i found one but it doesnt fit the resolution nicely so off to recycle bin again. then i was searching for some picture of bathtub. all thanks to this girl here.
*side-note : ✿◕ ‿ ◕✿ the pinkish is so cute...

but the searches ended up weirdly... either i get pictures like 1. naked girls 2. kids playing in tub 3. some emo people trying to suicide..

HELLO???? is there something wrong with the bath tub there that normal adult people cant just have normal kind of fun there??? like soaking in bubbles and reading?? or just soaking and having hot chocolate?? i can hella suggest 10 normal activities to do involving the bath-tub.

1. listening to songs you never heard before or Beethoven *note: it will makes you smarter
2. watching tv. *put a small tv there
3. writing some creative stuff there *a lot people do get inspiration while bathing
4. do 반신욕 *please refer here ..natural way of losing weight
5. enjoy your tea, coffee, chocolate or whatever you like.
6. massage your body especially your feet
7. talk to yourself. it makes you less insane..trust me ≧◔◡◔≦
8. play with bubbles...*you get the word 'childish' stamped on your forehead, ever
9. well, if you ok with your toilet cleanliness, you can have snacks there.
10.FREAKING JUST SOAK IN THE HOT WATER. THATS THE POINT OF BATH-TUB

and im back to searching for picture that i need... (╥﹏╥)

ground zero

2011-10-14T17:27:00.003+08:00

it took so long just to gained the courage to try it once again. and i have to say it is really hard to gain this confidence. been fidgeting, passively and voluntarily ignoring whatever that is happening around. lets put it this way, to get out from comfort zone and to step into an unknown place, it is really scary. and i was pretty sure i was not, never ever ready for it. but then i decided well, it is time to take myself to somewhere 'better'...

well i should have known earlier. or at least realized it. or the least do some prevention, in order to get hurt less. if there is such thing. but then reality never stray away too far.. they just went away to make life seems okay for awhile, and they came back just to hit you strongly. enough to knock you off the cloud. i was stepped, not literally, but i felt so. embarrassed, stripped naked with no shield to hide, emptiness.. all this emotions came flowing back right at that moment. for once, i was thinking, who i am kidding with? should have known. no, i DO know. only ignoring it.

so here i am. back to ground zero. lost the confidence. not knowing what to do, not knowing how. digging a hole again like the mole to hide away from the world for awhile. til i decided next things to do..isn't this heart is too fragile to be just crushed into pieces again?? maybe i wasn't intended to do this from the beginning. but what can i do. i wasted my youth for this and there is no turning back. only a black road that i can't see. practically walking in blind..

to fall in love, again..

2011-09-30T03:22:00.002+08:00

thats the worst, isn't it?? wanting to fall in love again? im not sure about that. maybe it is the hormone, maybe it is the drama im watching or maybe it is just the need of someone to lean on. to be honest, since the last relationship, i never thought of getting involved in this again. many reasons to it. one of it is that i thought im not suit to be in relationship (it takes a lot effort and time in it) and secondly, no candidates. up until now, i was quite satisfied with the life i had for the past few years.

til recently. too much argument with my parents, too many worries. i wish i have someone that i can just talks too and sometimes be with, even when i dont feel like saying something. i need someone to constantly talking with me to keep the silent away. sometimes i dont even feel like sleeping because i hate the silence the moment you fell asleep. thats i keep my ipod on, like 24/7.

well, life has been a straight line since i-dont-remember. not that it is good to have super ups or super lows times. but then straight line could get boring too sometimes. though i do appreciate the times that i have to spend living in cyber life. but those little ups and little downs could be a memory and often in times, inspirations for life. now there is not to be inspired at all. actually i'm sad today because i fought with mom, big time. and i got nobody that i can share it with. and i doubt my bloggie here can reply me. bloggie can only do as much as for me to pour out my heart. but over and over again, it is the same problem that we are arguing and i got tired of ever typing it again. because then, i will come to realize that i might, be, afterall alone in this world.

come to think of, i never really have dating experience. like really. i barely remember anything. but then why sudden gush of desperate wanting to experience it. the talking, the walking, the sharing, the holding, laughing. and of course, probably the crying.

probably it is the autumn that caused all this yearning.

pffttt.. i forgot the main problem. where to find the main male actor. the one that doesnt went MIA in the middle of movie. or someone who just walked by.

im a proud omma..

2011-09-28T19:12:00.004+08:00

do i have to said it 1000x times or do i have to put up a banner?? hmmm, i think i should put up a banner...

it was supposed to be a big picture but when upload, something goes wrong..but then who cares.. as long as it expressed what i intended..

i think i never brought it up here then i currently have this obsession towards this group of boyband. yes, they are way younger than me. but hell they were good. its been a long time since you know who, that i got addicted to group. i almost gave up on them. i did til i saw this bunch of people performing on tv for a japanese concert. straight to the point, by 1 performance, they managed to attracted my attention with their dance. which leads to me, watching their at-that-time current only tv show, sesame player. and trust me, i got hooked. the next thing you know, im already announcing myself an inspirit..a noona inspirit btw. and you cant keep me out from voting them for the 1st win.

i even bought their album, without consideration because the songs are good. really!! i almost love every single songs they performed. right from 'come back again' -> 'BTD (before the dawn)' -> 'nothing's over' -> 'can you smile' -> 'be mine'... and from the album, i seriously love it so much i ended up ordering it before i left for cambodia...

little that i know this kids ( i make jokes with my gfie, that i loves this kids like they are my baby..really, i want my baby to be like them...LOL. i cant like them as man because they are freaking young. come on, the eldest born in 89' and the youngest i think born in 93'/94') won no #1 when im in cambodia..happinesss..the next thing i know, they moved to new apartment which is a promise to them if they won no.1.. their old dorm wasnt the nicest thing to stay..

and they released a repackaged album AND i ordered it too..because i know i will totally <3 it. by just looking at the poster picture and teaser mv, i know it is my style of music.

and the kids proved themselves well.. i couldnt stop playing the stop and cant stop wow-ing at how my kids grow up so well,..i am a proud mother y'know..haha

the funny thing is i even spread the virus to my friend. making them liking the kids too..well, good thing have to be share. except bf. since they are not my bf, so i can share them.. but im having hard time trying convince myself i cant fall for kids that young..hahaha keep your peeled for them, they will bringing the roof down. the name 'INFINITE' are mentioned everywhere nowadays..

boom academy saying they wanna recruit them especially magnae.
top dancers voted them No.3 for dancing
and more i cant remember. oh one of the kid is on immortal song. i dont think any rookie group have been on it...

the O me

2011-09-25T23:08:00.003+08:00

when they said Blood type #O kinda person is the most optimistic as compared to the other blood types, i think they must have left me out in the cold or i had the blood test wrongly. somehow, i am pretty sure that i am the LEAST optimistic person among all those people i know. i constantly worrying and thinking about any solution if something goes wrong. and things ALWAYS go wrong.

and i hate it the most when i have to make life-decision because i am quite sure i am not capable of making a good decision that i will be satisfied. even worse, i am scared of taking the first step. to add salt to the wound, me the 'O' would not ask for help because i 'believe' i can take care of it. but lets face it. if i can, i would be long gone, instead of here typing all this.

seriously, the problem is not i dont have money to move to somewhere better but i dont want to stay in the same place either.
the second problem is im jobless and i need a job, fast. but i dont want ended slaving myself to work and to some bad-ass boss.

now tell me how to choose and how to make a good decision. this is not leader 'O'..

p.s: this post just proved I AM NOT OPTIMISTIC AT ALL.....>.<

what it means?

2011-09-22T12:17:00.001+08:00

we was being chased by a crazy bastard. i dont know where i am but i know im frantically running and trying to save myself. with all sorts of things, including a sudden capability of turning invisible in the course of running and saving my lives (i only realized i can turned invisible right before the man found me). im not the one only being chased with the feel of needing to save our lives. there are a few more (i opened a locked door using what i called brain-will, and hide him and myself inside, is a bathroom btw). but i dont know them, i only refer them as 'kids' and we are running as individual, not in a team.

whatever ways or even power that i possessed, unable to shield me from the m.f.s.o.b. and every strengths that i have, it has disadvantages.(like my invisibility, my body remit this heat that can be sense but its kinda too hot to touch me)

after running hard, i came to a place where i see my dad and mom..and we were discussing how to save me. and suddenly, i just shouted "kids run" and i frantically run to find a place to run. to my horror, my mom is with me. and there is well, where i hiding along with my mom. from there, i can see clearly the staircase that i ran up just now. a bunch of crazy people holding guns and were fighting with the villager. the men including my dad was there holding a kid and trying to solve the problem.

i remember telling my mom to hide well and to save herself. i can help her hide but she must help save herself. and last thing i remember i told her "mom, i love you". and we ran as fast as we possible could towards the other end.

i awake with my heart thumping very fast. the only thing missing is cold sweat. not again, mr. nightmare. but it is my first time dreaming and waking up with heart jumping so fast. what does it means, the dream? i can guess.

weirdly, among the course of running, there is this frog. fuck, i was scared of the frog that jumped to my leg. i was shouting like mad trying to get it off my leg instead of saving my life.

p.s: too much of drama kinda of dream maybe because im watching too much of tv lately. but it makes it easier to perceive the meaning of it..*sigh*

single me

2011-09-22T00:15:00.002+08:00

i really hate it when people challenging me or what people called "hurting pride"..i was honestly a bit hurt by those words. im trying to do good here, trying hard really hard proving it to myself that it is really ok. but words just proved me wrong. at least their words do so.

are we living in a hard cold world that i cant be 24-soon-to-be-25 and still single?

why does everyone just have to slapped those hard word to my face?

CY asked me when am i going married? she should know it better that im still single..and she said im just looking too high. and guess what i replied? "then should i look lower? i might ended up getting someone shorter than me.." puns intended

and stop asking me why i'm still single. if i got the answer, i wouldnt be single. but im guessing;

1. im too hard to get, as to them. i dont know. some people told me i look superior. it is bad enough with me feeling inferior all the times and to add salt to the wound, they feels im more superior..wtf?

2. im not mixing around. those that i know, i knew them since like centuries ago..

3. i really need help..haha

so just stop ok. or ask the god why instead of asking me. better still, introduce me to someone..end

Hate-list

2011-09-18T09:46:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna start listing things I hate >.<

1# waking up. Triple :(

pure JYJ

2011-09-15T00:27:00.002+08:00

i seriously cant imagine when is the last time i ever enjoy such song. i gotta admit even jay park doesnt have such effect on me, when it comes to songs. really. DBSK was the last with their soulful song, and now JYJ...

pure ♥
it is been so freaking long since i cried because of a song. and im glad the trio of JYJ still able to do so with their vocal and trust me i like them 3 than them 2. honestly.

and f******* can understand at least 70% of the meaning without the english sub...hurray..

2011-09-13T16:54:00.001+08:00

'The loop of memories you've winded up, became weary and worn out by misunderstanding and excuses. The clock stopped long time ago.'

Guilty pleasure

2011-09-11T16:06:00.001+08:00

*dies*

Gone along with my motivation to get back my waist and flabless tummy..

Ps.I'm updating from blogger new iPhone apps. Maybe I will prepare a review later

misled again T.T

2011-09-10T15:40:00.002+08:00

i dunno. i feel pity for this people...he or her is searching for bruno mars 'nothing on you' but my post came out...to make it worse, it comes out 1st top search..

is that a bad thing?? yes !! recently i got to know something, if you post anything on twitter or blog, with or without tag, those in korea that are using naver or daum can search you up...

so becareful with what you write..but then i really wrote a lot bad thing about *pm....let them read..let them know i hate them... :P

weird hobby of mine

2011-09-08T01:42:00.002+08:00

brandan; brandon
jayden; jaden; jaedon;

lucas,

alessia; alexiah; alesia; alesha; alesea; alese; alessa
aaliyah; aaleahya; aaleyah

and i have a few korean/chinese ones but i dont have the interface here to type out the korean/chinese word..brb

:'(

2011-09-06T23:55:00.001+08:00

i am sad for i have abandoned my dearest bloggie for a long time. it feels like it stopped flowing, the thoughts. it no longer goes, swoosh~~ and the words came together..

hmm.. what is the reason??

dumb blonde

2011-08-22T23:25:00.008+08:00

A blonde asked someone what time it was, and they told her it was 4:45. The blonde, with a puzzled look on her face replied,
"You know, it's the weirdest thing, I have been asking that question all day, and each time I get a different answer."

i think the statement 'dumb blonde' is another understatement. or is another statement that contained gender discrimination towards female..you see, despite blonde being described as dumb and it doesnt stop the kpop artist from getting themselves a blonde hair colour. some of the rocked it and some of them just nah-h.. not gonna comment too much to save myself from flying knives and stones but i got my tongue too :P

seriously, i think yoseob is going good enough with this face and black hair..why blonde?? it only makes him look weird and less cute..luckily now he is back to brown/black. i used to said this, b2st got themselves anti as stylist. as compared to current style, their previous style is just drop dead nonsense..

some said ok some said no..i seriously dont know. it doesnt look ok to me but i dont hate it either. maybe just weird maybe just not to used to it. you know, like i gotta a feeling that i know him well (i only think i do, not necessarily i did) but i really cant think of a reason he is doing this blonde thingy. maybe it is for the movie maybe not. who know. i dont think i understand him anymore after the numerous of tattoos he had. anything, i still support him because i know nobody can make him do things he dont like now. and he proved me wrong on IS2..*shrug*

well, he for a reason i think he is really girlish, i mean in terms of his look. like he is really a girl. so if he is blonde is still doesnt annoy me because he does look good in blonde. it kinda makes him prettier in a sense.

this fellow here is weird..he doesnt look extra good being a man (i have to say this, he is not the most handsome one) but omg he look extremely pretty being a girl...wth? i even have my mouth wide open when i watched the show O.O he is SERIOUSLY PRETTY...weird. and for one, he look good with his blonde too.. especially in SBS summer special performance, he look hot with smiling...ahh, i know. i fell for his smile...

now tell me, that he is not pretty?? yes, he is the guy above there...the same freaking guy.

when the subject is on guy with blonde hair, you cant left this man out. i think he is the pioneer in blonde. and he is the only one that i admitted that he DO look good in blonde. in the matter of fact, i prefer him in blonde than black. because he look friendlier, more approachable, funnier and hotter in blonde...when he is in black, im scared of him. look very cold personality to me..

isnt he is super hot in the picture above there?? come on, he is...

ps. i cant differentiate platinum blonde, dirty blonde or anything blonde because to me it is all the same AND im not a blonde.

ps2. i was tempted a few times in the past to try blonde and stuff on my hair but i know im not going to rock it. so~~

ps3. im just stating the few person that makes impression on me with their blonde. i know tons other out there with their blonde but honestly i cant think of any other. probably dongjun (Ze.a because i just saw his performance). and as usual, no girls. :P

naver search..

2011-08-19T15:56:00.003+08:00

i think being a typical hallyu fans, the word 'naver search' or 'daum search' must be quite familiar. because often artist will compete among themselves to make them in the list of most search. i dont know how to explain, as long as they have this list of highest of search term..

and i kinda surprised me when i suddenly got a hit from daum, so i got curious and it lead me to this...

ROFL.....the poor person was searching about BERJAYA TIMES SQUARE and the search engine lead him/her to my blogpost about jay park's fanmeeting which is held in times square last year..

sorry, i didnt mean to mislead but this is plain funny..that person must be hella frustrated when the blog mentioned nothing about berjaya times square but full of fan-girl...

TT.TT

2011-08-19T00:31:00.003+08:00

i dont think i need any more or less expression to express myself now..im kinda angry but not really. less angry but more agitated by this fact. *&Nyfg8&^&$YUd79wirT(I)fao I JUST LOST MY DRAFT BLOG POST...

i remember waking up the other day and slightly excited over the fact that i got new idea for blogpost. as i was driving my mom to melaka for her checkup, i was practically driving with my mind split into two. 1 driving, 2 drafting my blog. and i was so happy in the clinic because i finally can blog from my mobile phone. thanks to an apps that i dLed the other day.

i dLed this "blogbooster' apps that supported several blogger engines including blogger.com/blogspot.com. i was delighted, really because i can never blog from omnia before. except by using the mobile-on-the-go which only allowed you to mms picture and post directly but never a full written blogpost.

as i was so happy typing while listening to my song, for once i was ok about sitting around in the clinic while waiting. only to my despair, today, i realized it was auto-deleted when i close my application. i havent finish my blogpost and i didnt bother to get it saved in draft because i was in hurry...T.T now i gotta cut my brain open to re-think what i typed. and the blogpost was over a dream that i had..fml, how am i supposed to remember back it now?? T.T

ps. it is still a good apps provided you SAVE it before exiting..seriously.

MR removed

2011-08-09T15:46:00.002+08:00

MR = music recording
MR removed = music recording removed.

when a singer performed on the stage, they will normally put in MR in the background to make it looks like the singer really can sing. no doubt with the MR removed, we can actually hear them singing live. there are still heated discussions in South Korean music scene because there are a few video clip that kinda proves the singer cant sing when they removed the MR. this often happened to boybands/girlbands.

of course, we cant judge their singing capabilities by watching the MR removed clip but somehow it makes us a little disappointed at certain people who we thought should be able to pull it of. of course, i wont expect too much from them since most of the artists i love, is the because of the dance ability...and maybe their smile...

so lets introduce to you guys, some of the awesome vids that i watched. not a perfect one but at least you know they are trying and putting a lot of effort.

INFINITE

since im into them lately.... <3
but im disappointed. i was thinking probably leader gyu and namstar can at least pull it off

namstar is better than leader gyu...as always namstar!! living up to his name..

infinite doing a VERY good job here..especially Hoya love and dongwoo love since they are rapper so i dont expect them to sing that well..but please give sungyeol more part please..
hoya seriously shocked me off my chair here....

BEAST/B2ST

this is a slow/ballad song.so fairly good. maknae has definitely improved a lot.

yoseob never let me down. somehow he still threw me off my chair. i expected him to be good, he is not only good, but extra good..almost to perfection, i can say that. a little more experiences, he might rocked any of the original DBSK member off the list.

the master of all DBSK

for singers with the crazy hectic kinda schedule, this exceeded my expectation. this is definition of perfect. but then since when they ever let me down, in terms of singing? almost never.

they win, BIG TIME. 10 hands down...like O.O although it is not as strong as it sounded during the concert, but singing it 'acapella'-ly is hell of a good job.

when dbsk became 2:3,

not 100% the same, but still good..afterall, they used to be the heavenly god when there are 5 of them

i have higher expectation for this 3 because they are the vocal three instead the other two.yunho is always the dancer instead of vocal. as always perfect from me to them..

im out of praise words.

i am not posting jay park's MR removed vid because i never expected him to be the singer.
not to be bias, i did admit he is the 2nd best in *pm in terms of vocal, but to be honest that because the rest just cant sing. in the past. now i dont know, they might trained their butt off to make sure they can take over his part. but i DID watch jay park MR. i think there is only one in youtube. not too sure.. but well, he did well, afterall he won IMMORTAL SONG 2, isnt him..

are they real?

2011-08-07T17:42:00.002+08:00

do you know why i hate watching "mnet scandal"? but im watching for infinite..and leader gyu is surprisingly manly and protective...it makes me wonder is that real or just a show? even worse it makes me wonder does it really exist? such caring and protectiveness? maybe it was just sweet for me and it maybe annoying to others..

but i like it.

but so far, i havent found my guy and so im single.

and with hate..to watch Mnet scandal...LOL

are you human?

2011-07-27T18:07:00.002+08:00

google the word 'human' and you will come across the definition of 'human'. you will come across definitions such as "A human being, esp. a person as distinguished from an animal or (in science fiction) an alien" or "Of or characteristic of people's better qualities, such as kindness or sensitivity"

well i think thats because human wrote that. so they tend to be biased toward their own race. isnt that very humanish?? i cant deny that i am too, human and i cant reject the argument that not all human are like that. only certain. well, im sure only certain dogs attacked human but why all stray dogs are being hunted down like a piece or garbage?

i just came across an article on how a mother bear killed her own cub and then committed suicide.
(link to the article)

here is the excerpt:

Traps were laid in the wild illegally. When the bear was trapped, she lost not only her paws and four limbs for a good fortune of money, but she was locked up in the cage and had to endure daily torture of bile collection up to 25 or 30 years. This bile collection process requires a hole to be cut in the bear stomach and an iron pipe inserted into the bear gall bladder. Bile was then taken several times a day. The entire procedure was done without anaesthetic in order to save cost. The pain was excruciating. The bear could not bear it and attempted to kill herself by punching her stomach. However, human prevented this suicide act by forcing the bear to wear an iron vest. With this iron vest, her movement was restricted; committing suicide was an impossible task. A mother bear knew it too well. When the bear worker wanted to open up her cub’s stomach, the mother bear broke open the cage and went after the cub. After failing to release the chained cub, she hugged the cub. The mother bear then killed the cub to save it from a life of hell.

...
Reluctantly, I followed him back to the bear room. Under his instruction, four sturdy workers brought in a cub and tied it up with chain. The cub looked at everyone with horror. When she saw me, her eyes brightened up. The cub dropped to her knees and begged me. I felt tears in my eyes.

Zhang waved his hands, instructing the workers to start the surgery.

In great despair, the cub lifted her head and cried, “Wooo....” She burst into tears. It was the most sorrowful and soul-touching cry I have ever heard in my life. It was as if knowing the human language, the cub shouted out the word, “Mom....”. Even the workers were startled.

At that very moment, an extra-ordinary shocking scene took place. A bear in a cage let out a loud cry. With her large hands and all her strength, she pushed open the thick iron bar and jumped out of the cage. The workers were terrified and fled away immediately.

Startled, I didn’t move. It was as if my legs had grown lead and I was not able to move an inch. However, the bear ignored my presence. She rushed to the cub. With her large hands, in awkward movement, she frantically tried to release the cub from the chain. Despite her best effort, she failed to release the cub. So, she kissed the cub and nestled her in her arms with a heavy heart. She licked the cub’s tears lovingly, crying, “Hmm ..hmmm....” to soothe the cub. The cub cried out, “Hoooo....”, as if calling her mom, asking her for rescue.

Suddenly, the bear let out a loud cry. With her large hands, she strangled the cub’s neck with all her might. She roared as she strangled until the cub’s body fell to the ground. Then, she released her hands. Looking at her dead child, she whimpered, as if saying, ”My child, I cannot save you, but you are not going to suffer any more. I’m so sorry.”

She bit her own hair. Then, she grabbed the iron vest and pulled it off her body. Together with the vest, the metal pipe flew out of the gallbladder. The fur at her stomach was covered with red blood as it dripped out of her stomach. She let out another cry, as if she has gone hysterical, and went towards the wall. “Bang!”. The wall collapsed.

this is not new.it has been going on for centuries and it is not only happening to bears. who knows what other animals are suffering outside there. how can those who are human too described as owning characteristic of better which is kindness and sensitivity. doing such painful and inhumane things to the animals for the benefit of $, those that makes them any better than the animal. even the mother bears know the life of pain that her baby will have to go through and why a human, who is said to possess such capability to think, unable to think. maybe it is the better brain that makes them the 'better' ones. you know, the better one will always bully the weaker one.

i cant do better, nor i have the ability to help them. i can only do to this extent. writing and spreading this love to as many as possible for them to know, that we should help them, the weaker one. the one that dont know how to protect themselves. so please people, help spread this out to the people and stop all this cruelty to this animal, who i see are sometimes better than human. they too, can feel pain and cry for the pain and love.

5.25

2011-07-21T05:25:00.002+08:00

i can hear the azan now..if you dont know what is 'azan', let me enlighten you a bit :) it is the prayer. not sure the exact meaning but you know something you can hear the muslims chanting their prayers from the mosque. thats azan (i guess :P) but thats not the point..the azan im heard is the azan for sembahyang subuh..well, 'subuh' is 'subuh'...it means dawn -__- if you don't know. go read your BM books again, dear if you need me to explain another BM words.

well, it is practically means im still UP with my eyes wide open and still very round (bet must be the cartilage itching like hell) i cant remember when the last time im still awake at this time..kinda miss it because i always dawn. it is love hate situation. love because if i missed the azan, meaning im sleeping well = good for body + brain. hate because if i happened to hear the azan = i have yet asleep/im woke up in the middle of night = definitely not a healthy sign.

but then listening to it, makes me nostalgic..(since when i never ) today is different. not good kinda of nostalgic, it makes me sad. somewhere somehow..maybe too much of coffee and tea for the day. or maybe too much of <3 around others and only dark cloud on top of me..

hmpph, anyway if you are awake now, have a good day for the rest of the day. im gonna sleep til noon..thats the life i love..

24th

2011-07-14T00:49:00.003+08:00

it makes no sense to me anymore. wasn't any special. wasn't exclusive anymore. it never was and i hope that it will. it will be a bit depressing if it won't in the future, isn't it? same ole night, same old day. the sun rises and sets the same place. it has been the same for the past 24 years. people gets up in the morning, goes to work and sleep when the day ends.

it holds no special meaning to me but to celebrate the day i was born 24 years old..the only thing is "wow, that was very long ago." i dont usually get excited for this day, only during university times, you have people that you called friends to celebrate and get excited about this day. cakes and fun was inevitable. mobile phone got unusually noisy with notification and your social network page got crammed with words and wishes. they mean good, i know. of course, i'm glad that they did so.

family tradition doesn't used to have cakes. cakes also not a big thing of mine. they will only have dinner together. a get together. the only thing to look forward because it hard to get everyone together nowadays. present is even far during days like this. my folks prefer food to their stomach.. :)

as much as i do not like cake, i also want to have candles lighten for me to make wish with sincere heart of mine and blowing it off like no tomorrow for the god to grant at least one of my wish. candles is always good. i know what i exactly need to wish for and god should know better than me that i need it to be granted.

anyway, happy birthday to myself.

ps. i do not why i'm so emo today.really.

re-define

2011-07-11T17:21:00.002+08:00

according to expert (im not the expert, dont worry), to attract the opposite sex, you must 1st, forgot all the previous relationship and hardship (hurt). thats mean dont be scared of getting hurt, *again.. and then there are a few other steps which i totally choose to ignore than to blog about. because im just lazy, you people can go and google it. my main point is according to the expert, you will have to grab a pen and a paper and start listing down the criteria of a man you want and the ideal relationship that you need. from there, find a man that fills those qualification.

thats what we call, redefine. we re-assess, re-think and re-consider what we really want and what we really need. reality may defer from dreams. and after experiments of the failed relationship, we might just know better.

and so, i did. redefine, that what they call. to me, it is just mere falling for another un-humanly, unreachable and far untouchable person..yes, because i couldnt see a guy now..the world is merely black and white to me. nothing interest me. well, again, exclude the unhumanly human part. because i found a new road. this guy ->

insanely pretty.

insanely hot.

insanely angelic voice.

well, lets clear this up. i wasn't such a pretty boy kinda of girl. meaning i never was into pretty guy. i will just shrieked and awed "hell, he is pretty. he is prettier than me. he is even pretties than miss malaysia. amber chia lost 100x"... but i never crazy after them. until recently this guy got its way to me. i know him long time ago but to admit i like him, just ewh...

HE IS NOT JUST PRETTY....he is f****** hot with his tattoo, earring, blonde hair lying in the bathtub. seriously i dont mind being the man if my bf is him... haha more points for him? he cooks and he cleans...like seriously good...and hell, he.is.muscular.with.a.hot.body. THAT IS 120% SCORE..

now, tell me, where to find guys like this?? because of this type of creature (*i mean human) i went colour-blind..so now are you going to change your type too??

miss ripley..

2011-07-09T18:46:00.004+08:00

[k-drama]

i totally dont understand the concept of this new drama called Miss Ripley by Lee Da Hae and Park Yoochun.. Lee Da Hae is playing the lead actress by the name Jang MiRi and she is a total b****..and as usual guys (well, im biased because yoochun) always fall for her. but dont get me to that part or else i will start a girl-fight with her..seeing how skinny and small is her, i might win you know. but then no, i will play nice for chunnie..

the point is she is a freaking hotelier and i dont think it is showing her professionalism as an actress to wear such a short skirt to portray her character. yes, she is she, acting is acting but still drama/ movie is reflect of our real life. and i dont think any hotel will ever allow that skirt. as if they have no code of conduct..i cant find more still of her work's dressing code, totally speechless...

as compared to this drama, Hotelier, it might be old drama so people still a bit reserved but still you respect them because of the professionalism trying to portray out the real life..

i dont know, if i saw a hotelier wearing such a short skirt, i might complain to their management about it.thats so not professional.

ps. merely watching for that cute dimple guy and you know who i am talking about..

problem..problem

2011-07-08T00:41:00.002+08:00

the problem with me is that i have problem blogging...

when im in kl, i dun have enough bandwidth to blog.

when im in segamat, i dont have time to blog. coz im busy streaming movie and watching youtube..

worst, i even dream about blogging a particular thing and the next minute, i forgot what it is..for #83964265 times i wanted to blog something but i dont have the access to blog (i might at outside or in particular case, i was sleeping) then i dont remember a single thing...

thus im abandoning my poor bloggie..and write such a crap here :(

brain control~

2011-06-29T21:58:00.002+08:00

if i will it enough, strong enough, will it turn truth...
if i keep thinking about it, will it be mine??
if im willing to give up everything, for the smile to be mine, will you be mine??
if i cry every time the rains drop, will i get you to dry my tears?

i want you to look to me that way and smile to me...in return i will cry for you, when you sad. so that you can continue your man.

even if i will you, will you accept?? will the God allow??

foul mood

2011-06-26T18:15:00.001+08:00

not really, im in a good mood recently. what else i can expect when i already finished my chambering and now proceeding with my filing for long call??? it spelled as F.R.E.E.D.O.M.....
of course not for that long, but well, lets just enjoy the time i have k? but as usual, got lotsa planning but never do it.. the best example is here.. i got lotsa of idea to blog but hell, once i reached home, almost 2 weeks and i barely started blogging anything..

im just lost in youtube. flooded with hot guys and drama. drowned by the time and in the cyber world....

Man No. #1

2011-06-19T22:49:00.003+08:00

if only im not born with this passiveness, if only im born with more expressive, if only i born with more capable of expressing my thoughts by speaking or acting it out loud, it would mean more.

if only i can earn more money than i spent, if only i can make you happy by doing whatever im doing, if only i understand what you want more, if only i could be what you want me to be, it would be better.

i know i wouldnt able to hug you or even say words like "i love you" or even a simple "thank you".but deep inside me, you are always my no. #1..you are the only man that never drop or need not to impress me to get that spot.

you are my hero, you are my man, you are my savior, you are my everything..

HAPPY FATHERS DAY

p.s i know you wont able to read this, but still i want to express it the way i could, thats by blogging.

falling in l♥ve

2011-06-13T17:01:00.002+08:00

well, it seems to be easy to fall in love with someone nowadays. but falling in love with the wrong person is the saddest part. the person you love might just doesnt exist or plainly doesnt belong to you...

no, it is not that sad drama from me. just that i have a rather funny encounter with a guy and it seems like i almost fell in love with him but of course he is just a stranger that i met. erm, if the word 'met' can describe the things that happened.

i just saw him and his gf on the concert. his gf and her friend were standing on the chair, to catch a better glimpse of the star performing on stage. and there he is, standing behind his gf chair on the ground. when the gf was trying to get down from the chair, he was holding against the chair to make sure his gf landed safely. well that part was enough to make me touch, but i have yet to see guys doing so. i mean, being the caring bf.

what next shocked me even more, to point i fell..he wasnt just holding his gf's chair only, he was holding her friend's chair too....take that, when will a guy be that sensitive ?? and extra caring???

i cant explained well in words, because seeing it with your eyes is the best..btw, i wasnt eyeing him for any reason. he is practically in front of me...and Adele saw him and noticed that too :P

well, if only love comes that easily but then bleh... i dont believe in love.

little ♥

2011-06-10T14:57:00.005+08:00

actually it all started when i saw Iqa has this nice (okay, plus cute) sticker on her phone and i wanted one for myself too..

so i get this for myself - and i couldnt help but buying more than one because it is so freaking cute..i feel like buying all that available but online shopping, u cant trust them so much..

and i almost have heart attack when i dint receive this after a week....but finally.

sticker #1 -

sticker #2 - taken by Ian

sticker #3

sticker #4

sticker #5 - taken by Fatin

sticker #6 - booked by Iqa

sticker #7

sticker #8 - taken by shoba

ok, i currently got 6 of 8 left since i took one for myself, adele took one, ian and fatin took one. so 6 left. i bought 10 only for now. so pick fast (ps. i will update later which one is not available anymore because i dont have the sticker with me now, i cant confirm which are taken)

new colour

2011-06-08T12:37:00.002+08:00

well the colour isnt new as if i created it, but it just been awhile since i changed the background colour. im just not the big fan of changes and im always more comfortable to stay in the comfort zone.but then i a crab- i got crabby and moody and i changed everything..

i have been comfortable with pink because it is lovely and peaceful to my eyes. but then again, it has been to long and some sort of getting bored and tired staying in the same place so i changed the colour. i used to like white, dont get me wrong, i still adore white (ps im getting everything i can in WHITE) but not here. not today. not my mood...

so im getting it black. as black as coffee..as black as the breaking dawn..and as black as my heart could be now

Dragon boat festival

2011-06-07T11:05:00.000+08:00

Happy zhang day...my nyonya zhang~~ nyam nyam

b2st BEAST

2011-06-01T12:03:00.002+08:00

*~*fan girl mode*~*.

i have this new current craziness for another kpop artist. of course it doesnt mean i abandoned my no. #1 jay park. it is just that this bunch of guys have something that attracts me and gotta be fair, they are fairly good.

B2st or beast

well this group of 6 are known as B2st or Beast which acronyms from Boys 2 Search the Top

and changed to Boys of East Standing Tall. personally i prefer the former because it is more unique but of course it makes more sense calling themselves beast when their fan-group is name as b2uty..intriguing isn't?? it makes a perfect sense to name themselves "beauty and beast".

it also makes sense to call themselves beast. i dont mean bad meaning, mind you, i really like their name and them. it is different from the rest and unique in some way. plus it shows their determination and their background. the way they were raised. if you didn't know, this 6 guys were once labeled 'recycle" group since they are either rejected or failed in the past in their attempt to be entertainer..and im glad CUBE ENT gave them 2nd chance as they proved to the world that they belonged there together..
i was kinda outdated when i came to know them. it was after the digi party where B2st, 4minute and g.na came to malaysia. i even remembered Suzy asked me to go but i wasnt interested right after they left and suddenly i got hooked on them like apple pie..(yes, i steal the line from Auburn). i dont remember how i got my interest on them 1st but i remember i really enjoyed the performance for beautiful and i kept watching as i moved on with their song bad girl, soom and the rest. and i remember liking their 'mystery' but i never went beyond, just listening.

but as i watched their variety show from mtv: b2st to idol maid and etc, i can see them growing stronger and of course better...this 6 guys are meant to be with each other instead of others. i briefly will summarize what i know about them and i wont paste from internet.if u want to know accurately, search for them..

Leader Yoon Doo Joon - i remember and know him from JYP hot blooded documentary show along with the 2am, Jay and the traitor group..and i remember him doing quite well there but he didnt not pass. but seeing him here as a leader was a whole new surprise because i thought he was a prankster but he proved himself good.

jang hyun seung - i didnt know eliminated from big bang until i saw one of the variety show where he mentioned about it. but watching him from the practice, he does have the YG or more like se7en style. his voice is good too..

yong jun hyung - well, he doesnt look like he belonged here either... but it is because of his tattoo and piercing. and he raps. i almost never heard him singing. but quite a talented guy with words, he co-wrote almost all b2st songs. he was part of Xing but i dun quite digging Xing so i wouldnt know. he is another awesome dancer and according to him, he was born bboy. how true, i dont know.

yang yoseob - probably the one guy that takes b2st to a higher level in vocal. seriously his voice is good and he is cute..i especially love him in 'fiction' because of his voice and dance. yes, he can dance. and side note : he reminded me of jyj's junsu...his friendship with junhyung too, reminded me of jyj's junsu and yoochun...

lee kikwang - was known as solo singer AJ but not quite make it for some reason. so i guess he is meant to be with this boys. he can sing, act, dance, MC and who know what else. he is the one person you hardly see him with the boys sometimes, because he is too busy with his schedule. acting and mc-ing.

son dongwoon - you wouldnt even believe how much this guy here improves. and for once, he doesnt even look like the youngest. from the clip that he submitted before b2st was formed to fiction, his voice will definitely rocked some of the vocalist in b2st their spot...

im gonna post more about them later..in the meantime, guess who is my fave member???

ps. it took me 2 weeks to finish this up..fml

truth hurts

2011-05-31T14:08:00.002+08:00

yes seriously it hurts like hell...
maybe im just dumb not to blame her. well it wasn't her fault anyway. it is the devil inside. i know it better and i didnt angry at her at all
it is so weird that i wasnt even slightly angry at her, just feel stupid for myself.

truth yes it hurts but it is easier to deal.. i just need to keep myself away from civilization to rearrange myself for awhile and i will be fine..

blogger Michelle Yap

2011-05-24T11:40:00.004+08:00

welcome back to myself....cheers...
*pong pong girl dancing to welcome me*
how long exactly, i cant remember since i properly sit down and blog..
i think that was long long time ago..
even now im using a minimized window and type as fast as i could to finish up whatever im planning to blog today
but my brain couldnt flow as fast as my finger could sway dancing across the keyboard.

i used to love to blog. i used to blogged almost every day and thats how i garnered a lot attention from lovers to haters. like i said previously, i actually do have people reading through my rubbish-thought but i didnt know until certain occasion. i used to able to blog because of the availability of a proper functioning computer, although it is a bit slow but i still able to express whatever i need to. unlike now, my laptop is already announced dead, my PC is way beyond slow already due to old age and dad's laptop just hate me. he refused to read my phone memory through usb. and i used to have internet connection, though slow but still enable me to do my fave pass-time activities. but now im left with a limited but extra fast internet. what can i do when i have a limited access and most of the time i maxed it out in one day trying to catch-up with the variety show??

whenever i have some thought and im unable to fully develop the thought, it just annoyed me to the max. and most of the times, after an hour or two, i will totally forgot what i what thinking about just now. so the blogging idea just fly pass me like that. i heard it from someone, or maybe i read it off somewhere, that this famous people used to keep a notebook nearby so that he can pen down whatever comes to his mind. even in the bathtub. but in my case, the book is another heavy thing in my bag. mind the word 'another' meaning i already got enough heavy things in my bag and i dont think the bag can handle another heavy thing. and even if i bring it everywhere, the list will only get longer and longer. because i still unable to write or type it out..

"the solution?? get an 24/7 internet connection on a better device or a better bag to fill in your stuff"

thanks for the suggestion but do you want to donate some money to me???

N.T.G

2011-05-12T10:47:00.000+08:00

Need To Go..
as simple as that.
no reason to justified, no excuse
im just tired and plain sick of this situation in this stupid place.

it is freaking small and dirty environment place
but yet this people is wasting the O2 shouting and talking nonsense
doing childish and silly thing.
this place is dying.
god has shown me what i feared the most, again
uncertainty
as i needed very much to leave this place

but do i care?
no i dont.
i cant handle all this bullshit anymore..

just 1 more month
people
cheers....

Happy Mother's Day

2011-05-09T11:22:00.001+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

to all the moms out there
especially to my mom...

since i posted pic of my niece in the previous post,
i think a lot people gonna start thinking that my daughter..
but i cant deny that i adore her,
a lot...
i adored both my niece but her more, particularly
maybe because she always around the house..

ps. im tired and sick hanging in the office..this is driving me crazy...

Current joy

2011-05-05T11:07:00.001+08:00

She is my current joy now

im just another frog

2011-05-02T00:34:00.002+08:00

well, i just came back from a yc session (yc=yamcha)..it is been such a long time since i have such an eye opening time..no pressure, no secret, just honest and non-bias talk with a guy...

after talking about future, career, life and love, i realized im a FROG in a well, yes FROG...and im just another frog that wonder whats out there but im a bit different. i dont want go out there because im scared of cows and goats..

yes im denial. yes i got no dream. yes i admit to everything..and i dont even know what i want, what i need and what i can do..to everything. life, career and love..work-wise, i dont like what im doing and yet there is nothing else i can do. i got no money and i got no contacts. all i have is a vision without a mission..

love?? even worse..im not looking and im not giving chance. my friend just shoot me with words like "denial" "lacks of confidences"..can i do better?? im not sure..can i try??i am but no improvements..even he got shock when he know i got histories..to which part he is shock, im not sure..at certain part of the talk, i just gave up.

because i know myself better than anyone.the problem is i dont know what i wan. even when he asked me, what im looking for? i cant answer.. i used to have a description of a man i want but not now.

not anymore...

"i am dead.thank you"

2011-04-17T15:54:00.005+08:00

again and again

no, it is not the song by *pm....

i detest them although i love jay...
but jay wasnt part of them anymore....

got it???
ya again...for the xx-th times for this freaking 7 months
i have a bad body-sore and migraine til i cant wake up for the bed.
and when i texted him about mc..

guess what??
even if im dead, he will still want me to rise from the death and inform him before 9am....
to that extent..
so if you found me dead, please wake me up at 8.59am so that i can text him
that

"i am dead.thank you"

trend vs satisfaction

2011-04-02T23:21:00.004+08:00

trend = following others or majority
satisfaction = a feel of enjoyment or contentment

recently i was debating whether or not to get an iphone. a secondhand iphone that i could get on a cheap price. and some people has been wondering why i want a second-hand iphone. what makes me kinda pissed off is that this person suggested/commented to another person that i wanted an iphone at all cost because im now meeting with "boss-level" people thus i need to be on par with them..

my reply??? "f*** off"

let me get this straight. im not a person without identity.or so i claimed. it is easier to explain it this way. trend and satisfaction. i know a lot, when i said a lot, i really mean A LOT people that get an iphone just because it is iphone..no need extra reason. basically, following the trend. come on, this is a familiar scene, u walked in a restarant/cafe and practically everyone is holding an iphone. what make them different??? the casing...

what makes you different when you takes this phone among the hundred that uses the same phone...you just mixes in, that all...worse, you drowned in it..no doubt, this is phone is 'geng' for the lack of words..i know and i understand, everyone ~~was~~ is still talking about it.honestly i was tempted by it too but only because of the well established itunes and the application. no more and no less. but i really dont like using the same thing people are using..seriously.

look the phone below. it has 4-inch LCD screen, super amoled LED and come on, it can play mp3 as your ringtones....what else better that??? it is plain dumb to pick up your phone when other people using the same ringtone that you are using because iphone cant customize ringtone...and it is stylish..hey, im just speaking my mind. feel free to disagree and im not, i repeat I AM NOT promoting samsung as if they are paying me to do so.i just PLAIN IN LOVE with it..
i dont give a second look at whoever using iphone because it is everywhere but i do give second, third and fourt look at someone using galaxy s..you cant miss it because it was freaking stylish..

i didnt said trend doesnt give you the satisfaction. some people do enjoy being in the spotlight. being in trend, being in the crowd, feel belong is their satisfaction. what can i say to that, right??but that definitely not me. my satisfaction??? having something that is so good to myself that i dont freaking care if no one knows about it..best example, my omnia..how many of it heard about it? how many people actually have seen it, beside me using it?? but then it is still the best damn phone out there..like seriously..most of the pic i took it is all using my omnia..

beside the crack at the side, im actually reluctant to change it..but then it is time to move on :P

so please please dont put me in the same categories as those who is using iphone...i may be caught off hand with an iphone, you never know but just know this. as much i love galaxy s, i need the application to be working and android is not the answer, not now...so i might just grab an iphone for the sake of the itunes, provided if i can get it off the shelf cheap...

SOS

2011-03-29T00:49:00.002+08:00

you know what is worse than nightmare at night???
it is insomnia..being not able to sleep when you have to wake up extra early the next day. it just drives you crazy..no matter what you did, the brain just refused to back down and rest for awhile..

it is worse because i got a dream-catcher to catch the bad dream. but i got no solution for insomnia..it has been a part of me to be unable to sleep at night since who knows when...

now i that i start to have insomnia, i feel more like me than anything...for the past few months i will get sleepy by 12 because of the morning daily activities (ei. working) but now that im getting back my insomnia, it feel so me again..feels like im back to myself..although insomnia at this time is not a good thing..

i really dont know what to do to get myself sleepy..i tried soaking in hot water, i try reading, i try listening to music, i try exercise (literally)

and i got no idea whats the problem...maybe im still full of energy (not, because my eyes is really tired) maybe im hungry...yeah should be..food & hunger is always a problem at night...

Pity them

2011-03-23T14:14:00.001+08:00

Pity us.locked outside..
Surprise shoba??

Life is a circle

2011-03-23T11:53:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i really feel like i need a voodoo doll,pins,needles and the most important,a picture of L. Im gonna stick the pins & needle to the voodoo doll with his face on.

It is so devious i can feel the devil whispering. And the angel crying telling me i will get it back for what im thinking to do..

But i dont care anymore..sometimes it is so frustrating and often i found myself speechless to point boiling with anger.

Of at least just get me his picture,im gonna take every single pair of shoes that i have and hit that dummy picture.each shoe hit around 100 times..and each times, i will it straight to face..

Seriously!! I can only curse here :s im dying sooner due to all that frustration

On the go~~~

2011-03-21T12:29:00.001+08:00

Yes..testing 1 2 3

one last moment

2011-03-12T23:37:00.002+08:00

it is not that late yet to realize that life is that vain and fragile. and it not too late to realize that we are living a life that might end anytime any moment. yes, god is THAT almighty to decide your life and death.

"I am convinced that He (God) does not play dice." Albert Einstein

but why he bestowed such a cruel reality to his subjects??? maybe he was giving hints to His subject whats to come will be 10 times more scary and cruel.

if you live in a cave or ignorant to whats happening in the world out there, here's clip for you. google up more to understand more..

my heart goes to those people. really, nothing is more devastating than getting stuck in such a disaster.

some point to ponder around :
1. if world is coming to end, why not just end it in one second. why let people suffer?? why does disaster hit one country by one country??

2.if world is really ending in 2012, what are we still doing??? life is short already. shouldnt we be doing something we like now??

sleep

2011-03-07T23:43:00.001+08:00

just a short one for the day...

"There is no hope for a civilization which starts each day to the sound of an alarm clock. "

and i cant agree more...seriously...
and im off for another wake up call in the morning tomorrow
:'(

back to the basics..

2011-02-25T23:37:00.003+08:00

take a step back, take a breath and look at the world around you..

take a journey around, go somewhere far from the city, take a look at the skies..

take a chance, escape to a place nowhere, close your eyes and feel the breeze whisper sweet nothing..

i realized that when we have a chance to be in the city, we tend to chase after the time. we chases the fame, popularity, social ranks and many other. we forgot what does it feels to be simple.

do you know what is the best camera??? it is not the camera that cost you RM3-5k or any brand camera..it is your eyes.

do you know what is the best tester?? it is our very own body and skin..

yesterday, for once after a very long time, i took a trip back to segamat by bus. and along the way, im mesmerized by the view on the skies..it is so beautiful, enthralling and im spellbound by it..the clear dark skies with nothing but a bunch of star spread across it. i keep looking and looking..

and i was being reminded of one thing. back to the basics..sometimes, taking bus is way more fun and simple for some reason. you dont have to be constant irritated by the other driver or worry about speeding. although nowadays, it is scary too to take bus due to accidents...but then by taking the bus, i can really sit back and enjoy the songs playing in my ears and take a look at the skies..and im happy.

and have you ever stand in a place where you can feel the breeze???it is so relaxing that you never thought what it could do to you...

all the tension and stress will be gone....

doing this once in a while makes you appreciate the simple life...as long as you are not dump like Paris Hilton..*this is a joke, dont mind if you get it*

Love??

2011-02-06T19:14:00.003+08:00

it is a simple question but i have yet to find the answer...it is a question that i have no answer to and it is a question that I, dont even know what to answer..

L.O.V.E

what is LOVE?
when do you feel LOVE?
who do you really LOVE?
why do you need to LOVE?
where to find LOVE?
how to LOVE??

simple 5Ws 1H

but i know none..

how do know it is love??
how can you be sure??
isnt love supposed to be sweet instead if hurt and pain?
is love ever-lasting?
if it is not, then why love?
DO LOVE REALLY EXIST??

now you know why im scared..
insecurities, unknown

CNY confession

2011-02-05T02:09:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~~~~

after been through all the shits and tears, it is another new year..another joyous day, although not really because im down with fever, flu and cough...god know how torturous it is to not able to eat all the food presented on the table and drink all the drinks you can....even worse, my jiu-mu is making my favourite soup in the world (although i still love my mom's soup but she can never make this soup) and jiu-mu even realized im not really drinking it a lot like i used to because im sick .... T.T

but this is not the point...actually this is the day where actually a lot people will popped out and send me message or even make a time to meet..as usual, everyone is busy with their life and gangs dont always meet up. even if they do, im not part of them. im just one of those when they feel the environment is good enough to ask me to join, then only they will ask. and normally i dont join because big group of people makes me uncomfortable..

and all of sudden, i got a CNY wish from a friend, to which i replied with a thanks and i asked how is she doing. and she just have to ask me a question that i almost never have a 'yes' as an answer. except for that once, which is years ago. and she confessed to me that she is scared. oh no, im the one who said im scared first. LOL.. it began like this. she asked me do i have bfie now and i said no, because im not looking for one. she got curious and asked me why. as usual, my answer would be im scared to have one. dont ask me why because i dont know, i just do. uncertainty and me doesnt goes along. and still she asked but i couldnt answer. til now, i havent reply her..(she so gonna kill me)

then i asked her, how about her..she answered me the same like i did. "no" but she continued with " and im scared. im getting old and im still single"

which make me thinks for a long long time...am i really getting old.. for god's sake im 24..i dont feel old.really !! to certain extend..(well, i do want to get married at 25, but i guess it is impossible by now) but whats makes me thinks more is 'loneliness is really that scary huh???"

im actually shocked by her confessions. for some reason. it seems like everyone is scared of being alone and being single annoyed them...it does annoyed me sometimes but im not doing anything to make it better. im not going out, im not meeting anybody new.. im just being me, AGAIN...to the extend, i think im giving up.

there is so much question on it...

journey to hell

2011-01-27T22:26:00.002+08:00

Howls over dog-beater video

Howls over dog-beater video

By JOSHUA FOONG
joshuafoong@thestar.com.my

PETALING JAYA: A video of a man abusing a dog has sparked a heated response from canine lovers on social networking site Facebook and triggered a nationwide hunt for him.

In the widely-circulated video, the unidentified man, believed to be a Malaysian, is seen using brutal force on a poodle in his attempt to get the dog to stand up on its hind legs.

Some of those who viewed the video have said the man is a Malaysian.

Several people also claimed to know his close friends.

Harsh lessons: The poodle being abused by the unidentified man in the video.

In one scene, when the dog returned to standing on its four legs, the man in frustration gave it a violent smack, sending the poodle flying.

The Facebook user who uploaded the 15-minute video last Friday said she had discovered it in a thumbdrive which she had found in a Kuala Lumpur shopping mall.

Thousands of animal lovers, shocked and angered by the man’s act, immediately called for his arrest.

“This is an outrage! Swift action ought to be taken on this man,” one Facebook user commented.

“The guy in the video is crazy to have done such a thing to the helpless animal,” another said. The Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals (SPCA) is getting complaints and leads from callers.

“We have been receiving a lot of calls on the matter but we have no confirmation on the man’s identity,” SPCA office manager M. Shelvy said.

She also asked those with information to call the SPCA at 03-42565312 or 03-42535179.

did you guys come across this news?? have you saw the video??/

seriously this man is nuts...trying to get the poor doggie to stand like that.and when the poor things cant, failed or refused to do so because he is tired, the fellow just hit him, throw him like he is a piece of toy..this man is so fucked up. and the gf too..how in the world people have the hearts to do..and to the extend on recording it down???

have they forgotten the rule of live?? that every living thing deserve to be love and care..not to be treated that way. even if he is a dog, an animal... have they forgotten the rule of life?? that during the moment of dying, everything you did on this earth will be reflected in fast forward...then you will be crying because you be suffering on the way to hell...

when i saw the vid, for god's sake, i only able to bear the first 15 sec and i clicked it close..i couldnt bear it..to come to a realization that we are living in a sick society..and society where there are people that all they would just for the own pleasure..

seriously sick. if only i have my way, im gonna make this man walks on his hand all the way from segamat to kl on the road..

but the netizen are even scarier..to be able to track the person in the video, to that i must salute them..and hope that they succeed in turning in this people to the police. and hopefully the justice is on the poor thing. or else for a decade, this cruelty will remains..and those who is doing legal aid, join the animal welfare too, please. i wanted to join but i give it up for another option. and i REGRET..

so low

2011-01-26T21:56:00.004+08:00

i never thought there could be so much challenges in trying to be a complete human...bumps after bumpss..this ride never go slower or even easier for me..when i was just starting to count my blessing and start to feel grateful that everything is working out fine - only to be turn that it is a lie..

life always have a funny way to teach me things. they never let me know or hint me earlier so that i cold at least prepare myself to deal with things like that..low tide never fails to visit.

credit to : ironcpu @ devianart

one after another. it is so tiring, mentally exhausted.. it is hard enough trying to deal with all these shits and you still have to put on smile facing those who just cant understand how hard it is for you to take..the best they can do is tell you "it is ok" which is not comforting at all..only to add salts to the wound..even worse when people tell you "it teaches you something"...YOU JUST DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS NOW..

probably i just enough of this world, of this life or probably i dont love my life that much. to me everything is vain thus i really wanted to give up. and things got so hard to take, all i really want to do is just to let it of my hand..crying like a little baby is not working, the pipes has long dried up. shouting doesnt help either..probably a pain-killer will..

this is not the 1st time i thought of it anyway..whats the point of living the dreams when you wake only to find the tears, pain and suffering.no one, absolutely NO ONE can bullshit and tell me they know who does it feel..because they dont. they can said the understand but do they really??

credit: najato @ devianart

im trying so hard to remember the reason im walking this path. the ka-ching, the people, the life all contributing to it. but the most, loves one...but sometimes i was thinking is it really not worth living like this.sick and pain, just gotta ignore and face all the nonsense in the world. the office and the UN. fucking life. and life doesnt get better.

for the sake of other, im doing this.but one failure, two failure, i seriously doubting that i was meant to do this..just a fucking nine months, and it just cant sail smoothly, can it??? how many times do i have to do all again.IM TIRED, SICK AND MENTALLY EXHAUSTED..

a walking body without its soul.flying around was its soul looking for its destiny...and destiny is playing around with life.life is just messing around.after all, there is another life for it to comes around if this fail.one accident and everything got so complicated because everything were messed up.

ONE MORE TIME. AND IM GONNA OUT. and dear god, please help me through this life with ease and pleasure. i did not ask for wealth so that i can spend on brand but all i ask is a simple smile everyday and not a single frown til night..and mom & dad, please bless me with all im doing although im not the best filial child of yours..and dear that person, please i need you more than ever now..

no.13

2011-01-22T13:17:00.003+08:00

sometimes when im PMS-ing i blame it on my horoscope trait..sometimes i woke up feeling cranky and i blamed it on the cancerian trait...sometimes when i feels the urge to cry in the middle of the night i blamed it on the sensitive side of the zodiac...life is so easy because i can just tell an excuse that im acting like that because im a CANCERIAN....

but with the appearance of no.13, he turned my world upside down...he pushed me to another person..and make me another person..and make me into the person i despised the most for being a player..and make me someone that i used to pitied on because they have no real feeling thus they playing with others feeling....

if you dont know what is happening please blame it on the the man who is raised from his original position and turned into a symbol for a zodiac..as you may know we ONLY have 12 zodiac in the past..we got the taurus, aries, capricorn, gemini, cancer, leo, Sagittarius, scorpio, libra..(opps i cant remember aquarius and virgo at all until i checked it)..let me tell you some facts of the no.13

no.13 horoscope which is known as OPHIUCHUS is actually associated to a real man called imhotep?? does it ring a familiar name??

yaya this man up there ^ is imhotep based on the movie "mummy"..imhotep is the one of the great person from the Egyptian time because he is a very intelligent person..he is the engineer, architect, professors, poet and the most notable contribution, medicine. thus earning him a lot of title and divinity amongs the people..

no.13 is symbolized with a serpent or snake as a symbol of imhotep. and the following traits for this sign is:

Many people are envious of this subject as he progresses well throughout life.
A seeker of wisdom and knowledge
Many people are jealous of this person
Tends to go for the more flamboyant in dress sense, favouring bright colours.
Authority looks upon him well.
Would make a great architect or builder.
Number 12 is this persons lucky number.
This person will have a big family but leave home at an early age.

credits to : Ophiuchus - The 13th Sign of the Zodiac 2011

so now it became

Capricorn: Jan. 20 – Feb. 16
Aquarius: Feb. 16 – March 11
Pisces: March 11- April 18
Aries: April 18 – May 13
Taurus: May 13 – June 21
Gemini: June 21 – July 20
Cancer: July 20 – Aug. 10
Leo: Aug. 10 – Sept. 16
Virgo: Sept. 16 – Oct. 30
Libra: Oct. 30 – Nov. 23
Scorpio: Nov. 23 – Nov. 29
Ophiuchus: Nov. 29 – Dec. 17
Sagittarius: Dec. 17 – Jan. 20

SO NOW IMMA GEMINI, for god's sake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

p.s: lets do a research on gemini next time..i never studied on gemini..i should start now..if you interested to know yours, let me know.. :P

on tv again

2011-01-20T11:57:00.002+08:00

have you seen yourself on tv?? do you like it???
damn again i was caught on tv...freaking unhappy...
because if it is on the national tv then nevermind la

mr L just installed cctv..
on top of my head, behind a bit..
so me and susan caught in the view...
the most unhappy and not satisfied things are that stupid tv only got us 2 people in view
not the rest...
only us and our computer got caught
and super clear...

so enter FB at your own risk la..
meaning i cant even fb or twitter or anything other thing now..
fml
cant online anywhere now..
luckily omnia can wifi a bit..so still can tweet...

so lesson of the day.
got caught on tv is no good thing...
even it is national tv..

ps.i think i still have the clip where i appeared on national tv

buttache

2011-01-12T19:11:00.002+08:00

buttache = butt-ache= butt pain

i know. i have the abilities to create the weird word when i have gone wrong in the brain. waking up the wrong side of the bed, eye swollen til cant even wear contact lens (when have you ever see me not wearing contact lens??? thats the point), red nose, whole body aching...still gotta go office because of 2 stupid signing...

i have the tendencies of getting cranky when there is weird noise in my brain...seriously..there is like, i duno how to explain the noise in my brain..then my joints hurts like hell...and im rushing for documents...sitting down, my butt pains..standing up, my calves, legs and feets hurt..typing, my fingers hurt...and i about to cry because I CANT STAND IT....

and that old man keeping calling and yapping at me....god, help me..even by not doing anything, my ear hurts, my eyes stings, blood vessel popping out..til the extent my clients asking am i sick..

i wanted to turn in early to bed like now.but i cant because my hair is still wet...really fml day..i cant even type longer that i wanted too because my fingers feel like being clipped with stapler...

im not SUPERMAN!!

2011-01-12T12:30:00.000+08:00

i just wished that old man could be a little more understanding.im sick and i cant work as fast as usual.i already make gazillion mistakes today because my brain is simply not functioning..

md as usual he is yapping yapping on and on.chasing this and that.he know i got signing yesterday today and tomorrow.how to have time to prepare everything??

and as if he is paying for OT ,car park or even travelling fee..damn.my lawyer ask me to be patience,'tahan'..but how to.there is 5 months more!!!

gift of surprise

2011-01-08T00:42:00.005+08:00

are you planning to buy a gift of surprise for your girlfriend (have you forgotten?? valentine is not that far away, GUYs)...

are you planning a surprise event for your boyfriend for all the times he stand up with your PMS and nagging ( and of course, for telling us that we are not fat and we look pretty, ALL THE TIMES)

gifts for her - you have been celebrating all the valentine day, white love day and who knows what other days you guys have been celebrating..and god know you have no idea what else to buy...tip for you: lingerie is would be one of the sweetest gift for a girl.it showed that you dont really about her figure.lingerie brings out the natural sexiest nature of a female. isnt that is why guy always think of victoria secret's model??? a pair of good lingerie makes a girl go "purrrr....." like a kitten...

gifts for him - you are planning for another surprise event for him..it might for the fact that you just burst your credit card or it is just a plain surprise event..have you ever try putting sushi on your body to have him eating it from there??(just like the girl in "Sex in the City" did) that is the sexiest thing one girl can do.it showed your confidence and it will make your man go soft...

but then there is another problem..what lingerie to get for her....what should i put on my body for him to eat of??? no worries :) i have solution for you...

simple and easy...

sweetest yet sexiest....

presenting to you.....
.....
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.

糖果内衣　( Candy Bra )

this is trend gift in USA and Europe now...the bra is specifically handmade one by one and is made of 515 Switzerland Candy....well nothing bests the sweetness of a candy isnt it???and of course nothing beats the sexiness of the bra that can be eaten of....it just make you rawrr.....

tempted to have it now??
dont know where to get it??
relax..it is now available in Malaysia and you can purchase it from
Weariton Online...

you can check out their website for more information
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website : www.wearitononline.com

well i bet you dont want to miss this out..
so faster drop by and get this...

p.s: i might post an interesting picture next time..so stay tune.. :P

time to wake up...

2011-01-04T10:49:00.003+08:00

i know this is too early but i cant wait to go back home and sleep..i really dont feel like waking up this morning..REALLY..but then have to wake up also.i got no motivation to come and work at all. motivation to dress also z.e.r.o...

p.s: i need to get a phone fast. with internet connection. so that i can tweet/blog on the spot instead of using office (closing/opening back wasting my time but i dont want to get caught)..

goodbye

2010-12-31T13:03:00.003+08:00

well, today is 31 December 2010..last day of year 2010 and all thanks to our national football team & of course, the PM for granting me a day off. or else i will be miserable sitting in front of the computer doing some-not-so-happy-or-fun work in the office..anyway,

goodbye, 2010

this year has been kind to me..a trip to chiangmai & chiangrai, final semester of university life, ended it smoothly, graduation trip to taiwan, a whole long 2-3 months break, a GRADUATION, lotsa interview before i ended up at this spot..not the best but then bearable..met a lot people that are so nice, almost making me feel blessed to have all this people helping me through the toughest and of course shitty time.....and the best, i met Jay Park..haha a handshake and a hi-5 really makes it all indescribable..

but the best of course, always and never change my family..they always have my back watched and supporting me no matter what...i <3 you..

best lesson: 1)always count for blessings 2)everything happened for a reason, you might not realise it now but one day you will

hello 2011

no resolution as it got no use. no fairy godmother to grant it and no god is that free to look at mine. and im powerless to make it a reality. i just a few small wishes 1)everyone in pink health 2)this torture 9 months to end soon & end smoothly 3)find something that i like and passion about to spend the rest of my life :)

p/s: happy new year, peeps...

morning, sunday 2010 !!

2010-12-26T11:39:00.003+08:00

waking up at 11am and not sleeping back on a sunday morning is hard to get...most of the time i will be sleeping back, knowing there isnt much to do beside housework..but then i get up anyway..

by the way, whether have you noticed or not, today will be the last sunday of 2010...yes, time flies..didnt i already said that like, for gazillion times... after the christmas it feels like new year gonna be no biggie although i did have celebration with a bunch of friends and make some new friends as well..oh ya and a trip too...

2011 is nearing but the wish-list for 2010 still havent been crossed out and thats life..sad.and i'm staying at this place where im depending on that stupid 3G and it keep sending me message telling me im nearing the quota..argh, as if i dont know or else i wont be typing this here. i will be off watching youtube already >.<

im PMSing because yesterday i woke up cranky. today also im cranky about something else...no need to say, working day is always Cranky Day..

after the rain..

2010-12-20T23:44:00.004+08:00

when the rain falls, i will open the window widely and let the breeze comes blowing, cooling up my room. filling it with the rain scents..then i will sit next to the window with my laptop or books. and a cup of milk....i dont know which is what i like, 1) sitting next to window during a rain with books/movie/drama and milk; or 2) the smell of rain.. i know it is not normal to like that smell but i really like it..i like it more than the smell of rain hits the hot tar and i dont like the smell when people cut the grass...that is gross

the smell makes me so melodic and feels so good. refreshing, calm, cooling, relaxing and all others...but i was wondering how the smell comes. and i googled it.. :D

1) It is actually caused by bacteria! Actinomycetes, a type of filamentous bacteria, grow in soil when conditions are damp and warm. When the soil dries out, the bacteria produces spores in the soil. The wetness and force of rainfall kick these tiny spores up into the air where the moisture after a rain acts as an aerosol (just like an aerosol air freshener). The moist air easily carries the spores to us so we breathe them in. These spores have a distinctive, earthy smell we often associate with rainfall. The bacteria is extremely common and can be found in areas all over the world, which accounts for the universality of this sweet "after-the-rain" smell. Since the bacteria thrives in moist soil but releases the spores once the soil dries out, the smell is most acute after a rain that follows a dry spell, although you'll notice it to some degree after most rainstorms.

2) secondly it is caused by the acidity of rain. Because of chemicals in the atmosphere, rainwater tends to be somewhat acidic, especially in urban environments. When it comes in contact with organic debris or chemicals on the ground, it can cause some particularly aromatic reactions. It breaks apart soil and releases minerals trapped inside, and it reacts with chemicals, such as gasoline, giving them a stronger smell. These reactions generally produce more unpleasant smells than bacteria spores, which is why the after-the-rain smell isn't always a good one. Like the smell caused by the bacteria spores, the smell of chemical reactions is most noticeable when it rains following a dry spell. This is because once the chemicals on the ground have been diluted by one downpour, they don't have the same reaction with the rainwater.

3)Another after-the-rain smell comes from volatile oils that plants and trees release. The oil then collects on surfaces such as rocks. The rain reacts with the oil on the rocks and carries it as a gas through the air. This scent is like the bacteria spores in that most people consider it a pleasant, fresh smell. It has even been bottled and sold for its aromatic qualities

credits: what causes the smell after rains?

credit: devianart

all i know i wanted to stand under the rain like i did when im a kid..back then i would not have care whether i got sick or whatever-so-ever. it soothe so much just to think about standing under the rain..but now that i turned adult, during rain like this, i just want to get a good soakin the hot tub with the music i love and book that i like..couldnt ask for more, could i?? ok, i admit i will be way better if there is the man i love cooking nice food for me ;P what'd you all think??

“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.”

life's good..

2010-12-14T00:03:00.004+08:00

cant exactly say life is really that good...but then it is not that bad either...

currently doing : listening to Red.fm while turning the tv on to watch some old HK drama, while hand busy scrolling through twitter and fb..and halfway flipping through the notes....

seriously every night now i will tune in to red.fm to listen to late night love song...every night no fails..even though i never knew what time they started but i know the end at 1am. because i always on it with my phone and tuck in to bed with it...seriously all the songs were love...

from old song like boys2men-i will make love to you -> aerosmith-dont want to miss a thing -> phil collins-against all odd....ok im not gonna name all the songs..but those who call themselves music lovers shall tune in, like seriously...you cant say you are a music lover if you never listen to those sappy love songs..worst, if you said 'i know music' or 'i love music' but then you dont know those songs playing there...those are classics....epic..

gtg...fml because i still have exam..and it is in another 2days...super fml because i havent read a single thing..and extra fml is the lecture is one whole day and the exam is the whole day...freaking lawyers, they really think their brains are super microchip that can store tons of info in less than 24 hours...

fml. im sleepy... *yawns*

life is too short

2010-12-12T15:19:00.004+08:00

isnt this is like, the most preached quote that everyone now living by it??
life goes this way;

child (you are too young to know anything) -> 10's (you go to school, wakes up every morning cursing why in the world you have to go school) -> 20's ( you are in university, wondering when you can start working because final exam kills) -> 30' (you start building career and at the same time, you are building a family.. honestly it kills because you wish you have times likes those in university) -> 40's (hell, you start worrying about many other things)

how many can really assured they can live life til 50 nowadays?? i know i cant...
you blinked and seconds passed...day by day, time passed..it passes so fast that sometimes, it scared me. although i pretty glad that time do passed..

ok,get back to point. now that everyone knows that time is precious why do people still want to spent it getting angry at someone over some small matter??? it is childish and sooooo sooo funny if you think of..

being petty and mind those small matter, keeping it as a thorn in your heart only makes life hard.as if it is not hard enough. why cant people let go, forgive and uhm, probably not forget and gets on with life??? life will be much more happier that way..

well, i cant control what people want to do with their life..this is only suggestion. probably they are correct about me..i have a good life so i cant complain and nothing to complain much..but heck, im not Paris Hilton so i do have unsatisfactory elements in my life. but i find counting blessing makes life pretty much better..it turns life better..

maybe they should read more...read book like THE SECRET..and try at least keep it in mind.i dont ask people to preach to follow but it is hella hard..or read more Buddhist book..it is free for distribution...

p.s: my english because americanized because of the man i met last week...damn, bad influence :D

Jay Park iz in the townz...

2010-12-06T21:08:00.003+08:00

Date: 4^th December 2010

Venue: Berjaya Times Square Hotel…

That’s one date that will last forever for me..no matter how, when I think back I will still go “aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh’ and smiling to myself…after months of hoping and after much deliberation, I bought the tix and make myself suffered pretty much for this. Finally the day arrived. And the man is here..

I pretty much going crazy over this guy. After noticing him in one of the Korean show, I have been a fan along way comes the controversies and I was devastated when he ‘left’ his former band, which is after-all a blessing in disguise :b

After all the youtube video hype, the man who was famous for covering BOB feat Bruno mars “Nothing On you” he has been everywhere and stayed in the limelight..and of course the Asia tour that I was praying for..the ups and down of getting him here is finally end, although til the D-day there are still lots of problems and troubles..but who cares, especially when he is standing right in front of you, crooning “nothing on you” dressed in a white jacket like a prince charming.

Yes, nothing else matter when JAY PARK is performing live. And yes, I wasn’t dreaming :D. It started with the VCR of him then he came out singing “nothing on you”..but you can see he wasn’t really happy/excited. Something is wrong L. Then he introduced himself and went in..the screen started to play some clip from the song “demon”..i thought they only played the video but halfway he came out with Daniel Jerome (AOM) and Andrew Baterina (SorealCru)to performed the song & the dance as well. But I wasn’t really into the song since it was my 1^st time watching it.

Next the mc came out to start the fan interaction session (she is pretty and she is good) and all of the sudden, Jay’s mood got way better and he was cheerful and full of mischievous again. Guess either he realized he got a show to do or he is really cheered up by the fans. AOM came out to answer some Q&A and some fans get lucky to get a hug, pinch his nose and best, touch his forehead with lips (dying of jealous >.<). Btw I took a picture which I think It is so amusing, at the same time touched. He actually moved the props by himself and I saw him picking up paper from the floor himself. He doesn’t act like a star and he is so down to earth, that’s what I love about him..(hell, where is backstage people???)

then, AOM battle....too much of cute action..and of course dance off by Daniel & Jay.one of personal favourite

The show moves on with performance by guest star appearance, Dok2 and The Quieet..actually before this, I was looking forward for this performance because I like dok2. His performance of “im good” is awesome. And when I tweeted him with the pictures of him during the performance, he actually re-tweet it, meaning he actually read all the tweets…( I was gleeing when I saw him retweet me J). Both of them really know how to make the crowd hype-up..”this is turning into a hip hop town so lets stand up and dance to the song” and the crowd went nuts..the crowd was even crazier when jay came out to sing “im doin good” along with dok2 & the quiet..

After that, Jay said it is time to slow down a bit. So he sat on the chair and I go “awwwwwwwwwwwwww” because it is time for my favourite piece of him “speechless” (im turned soft for ballad) the lyric “im in this way too deep to swim myself ashore, and I need your help” keep playing in my ear for some reasons…and it goes on with another performance of my favourite song too which is “bestie” where everyone dances to it..

That’s the end when he said thank you and see you again..on the screen was playing VCR of his handwriting scribbling words to thank the Jaywalkers for the supports and love..but we wasnt satisfied..i know im not. So the crowd went chanting “Encore, encore”..

After some time only he came out singing “down” and “u got it bad”..i was super in love when the part the lyric goes “telling the whole wide world that im your man and you’re my girl” and I shouted along the lyric “saying you’re my man and im your girl” (although jay sings it the wrong way sometimes”……I was gleeing the whole time..and he said he wasn’t supposed to perform that but he did it. Guess he wasn’t allowed to rip his cloth. But then no ripping cloth here as I hope but he teased us with slight lifting of his shirt. And I don’t want him to get banned by the sensorship anyway J.

Bumped into Mike on my way to group photo session. So I took a picture with him. He is super tall and very Taylor Lautner look alike..and in the group photo with Jay, im standing next to him. No idea when the picture is coming out, so I guess all I can do is wait patiently for it?? Oh ya I bumped into Daniel too in the lift, on my way out of the hotel.

Well, that end that happy day..went flat after that because woke up early to catch the show. And there is day 2 to it..

guess that is "c ya.til next time" if there is next time

STOP child ABUSE !!!!!!

2010-11-23T12:09:00.010+08:00

We worry about what a child will become tomorrow, yet we forget that he is someone today.
~Stacia Tauscher

i think everyone should be reminded with a big sign written across their forehead, why they were brought to this world..remind them how they were bought to this world. and some shall have their childhood flashed through their mind, playing like a tape playing video on the tv. let them be reminded of how a childhood should be. if they have a good & pleasant childhood, then they have the responsibility to ensure children always get the priority to life. and if unfortunately they were a victim of abuse themselves, they have a greater responsibility to make it stop.

UNICEF latest campaign are to promote against abuse towards child with the theme 'get on board' asking public to join onboard to support this campaign. this campaign is a good move to enlighten public on abuse. many still lives in darkness and ignorant to the facts that there are a lot other children that are suffering now. and yet we still need to worry, what they will become in the future. afterall there is a saying that " “Children are like wet cement. Whatever falls on them makes an impression.” thus, this campaign is to come to bring force to try to stop as much abuse as we could.

1.baby dumping
one of the abuse that i wanted to stop is dumping of baby. a couple months ago there are so much of news on baby-dumping appeared on the newspaper as if it was a trend...but this i already spent some time writing about it a few months ago in a blog title "Love to Baby" so i dont want to repeat the same thing.

2.sexual assault

a lot people wanted to just the rapists to sentenced to death due to the nature of the crime they did. what about pedophile? how many people actually gave a thought about pedophile or maybe even child molester??? i doubt people even know the word 'pedophile'.. do you know child that are sexually abused during their childhood more likely to suffered long term psychological effects..no doubt that all sexual victim suffered the same but they are too same to understand whats happening and often nobody believed in what they said and even worse, they couldnt even protect themself.

children is to be teach, not to be caned or hit. of course i do agree that sometimes kid are too naughty and they need to be taught. i myself grew up with cane.hehe but then it is reasonable when i think back now..but not to the extend of using iron or cigarette. if you ever came across the book title 'the child called it" you will be exposed to the experience of an abused kid and how he came through and survived with zero abusive nature in him.and not all kid can grew up in abusive environment without wanting revenge or should i said, abusive nature nurtured in them too..

as parents, it is their responsibilities to provide the best that they could and that include all the basic necessities, including love and care. children learns from what they are been shown and imagine what they learn if they grew up in abusive and un-love environment.

“Let us put our minds together and see what life we can make for our children.”

lets start a healthy society that provides a good and safe environment for our future leader.
let them have the same good memories that we have when we were a kids.
let them do not regret the childhood that they had in the past.
til now, i still want to revert back to my childhood time because thats when im truly and really happy.but of course, it was make possible with the love and care provided by my parents.

go to UNICEF to get on board and spread the love to the child..

im half jap,half korean but chinese

2010-11-18T09:42:00.004+08:00

I. Surname : Korean surname is the last number in your year of birth .

- 0: Park = 박

- 1: Kim = 김

- 2: Shin = 신

- 3: Choi = 최

- 4: Song = 송

- 5: Kang = 강

- 6: Han = 한

- 7: Lee = 이

- 8: Sung = 성

- 9: Jung = 정

II. Middle name : is your month of birth .

- 1: Yong = 용

- 2: Ji = 지

- 3: Je = 제

- 4: Hye = 혜

- 5: Dong = 동

- 6: Sang = 상

- 7: Ha = 하

- 8: Hyo = 효

- 9: Soo = 수

- 10: Eun = 은

- 11: Hyun = 현

- 12: Rae = 래

III. Name : is your date of birth .

- 1: Hwa = 화

- 2: Woo = 우

- 3: Joon = 준

- 4: Hee = 희

- 5: Kyo = 교

- 6: Kyung = 경

- 7: Wook = 욱

- 8: Jin = 진

- 9: Jae = 재

- 10: Hoon = 훈

- 11: Ra = 라

- 12: Bin = 빈

- 13: Sun = 선

- 14: Ri = 리

- 15: Soo = 수

- 16: Rim = 림

- 17: Ah = 아

- 18: Ae = 애

- 19: Neul =늘

- 20: Mun = 문

- 21: In = 인

- 22: Mi = 미

- 23: Ki = 기

- 24: Sang = 상

- 25: Byung = 병

- 26: Seok = 석

- 27: Gun = 총

- 28: Yoo = 유

- 29: Sup = 섭

- 30: Won = 원

- 31: Sub = 섭

got this test/quiz/survey from this guy
http://adrian-kokjun.blogspot.com/2010/11/what-is-your-korean-name.html

i think it is kinda interesting..
some of you may know my nickname in this virtual world which is HAMANO ASUKA
a lot people came across my fb & started asking whether im a japanese....
then i will just LOL...
because the name i got it from an online translator.
once i came across the name, i have been using it ever since.
never change.
a lot reason to use it.
1.very convenient because nobody know
2.very unique
3.the only one using (*i guess)
some people bullshitting at my facebook making fun & jokes of the name and saying im not grateful of my name.
please bear in my mind, im very proud of my name thus i have an English name so that people dont mispronounce my name..

now that im have a korean name...
annyeong haseyo, cho-nun Lee Ha-Ri ibnida..
go figure my birthday, haha..
although this is not really accurate considering the facts that i do know tad lil korean,
i know what my name is in korean..
but it doesnt make sense since koreans doesnt have my surname in korean.
the name here makes a little more sense since it is more feminine and i dont get a random guy-ish name..
imagine suddenly you get a ''sub'' in your name..
doesnt that just make you feel like so ji sub??

but then no matter how i change my name,
be it michelle or hamano asuka or lee ha-ri,
im still a chinese and im still who i am..
and only a few people have the privileges of calling me by the name my family calls me..

sick holidays

2010-11-17T13:10:00.002+08:00

people have fun time for the holidays and i spent the day AND the day before on bed..unable to move a single muscle.
but i spent the whole day rushing & catching up with the drama that i missed out..to be exact, im watching 'Autumn Concerto' the whole 2 days & yeah, i finished it...i know im a bit outdated but im not a big fan of taiwanese drama but got influenced from my ex-roommate.she always watched and especially during the exam times, i will follow suit to watch got i got 'nothing' to do..

compared to the one by Jerry Yan & Ethan Ruan, i think this one lacked a little bit because i didnt become that crazy with the male actor.watching the one by Jerry Yan, i got so <3 with Jerry because i like the way he speaks. so soft-spoken & gentle. while ethan, hmmm, is my 1st time saw him la..literally. and vanness i already know him way before the drama and lets just put it here, he doesnt left a good impression although i still go ga-ga a bit over his body..

instead of crazy about the males, i keep looking out for this girl.she is so pretty.she looks so japanese mix & she is the type that will look nice no matter which side of the bed she wakes up..she is pretty and that coming from me who seldom praise girl.. :P but then i like vanness and his body..hahahaha

it seems like im talking more about the drama than my sickness.

nose in the air

2010-11-10T09:34:00.005+08:00

you are wearing tight skirt, and im wearing loose skirt. you wearing collared shirt and im wearing a dress. that make you feel superior to me?? it make no difference darling. im just capable of doing what you are doing if i put my mind to. the difference is i dont want that life & i love play dress-up.that it is. it doesnt make your nose up high in the air.

dont you ever dare to look at me like that. like im not worth anything. im probably working sometimes that is tougher than your job. just because you are taking a freaking bag that i have no idea what brand, you think you are smarter than me..you dont know, girl because i dont know you and you dont me. so dont judge me.

btw, im just one floor below you..

actually i finished typing this in the afternoon ready to post at night...but i didnt..and i got really angry at one MrL and one MsC..we are like their toys to play around & kick around when they are in the mood for yarn playing or some scratching post when they are not in the mood..really *******, im angry til im so speechless at them....& i can only tell myself "awhile more, awhile more"..

life & death

2010-11-06T23:28:00.002+08:00

life is short. people always said 'live life like you never live before'. but how many people really can do that. how many people really appreciated those around them & how many people are really doing things they wanted to do..

how many actually live life as if today is their last day?? do they know it is going to be their last?? i doubt they do.

life is TAD short.

and we think life ends at death. but we failed to realized that it start at death. if you read '5 people you meet in heaven' you will have understand what i said. maybe you will think it is only a fiction, a story that a living person wrote. but to think of it, it has a degree of truth. the life just begin to those who lost someone.

accepting death, embracing the lost are hard even to the strong one.

ok i failed at staying at one points and said what i really want to. no wonder people failed to understand me..i was just a little upset over a sudden death of a close friend of my dad. so sudden & unexpected. so 1001 things rushed to my head..not helping the situation, fortune-telling paper that i got last week said i should do what i wanted & not listening to others.thus i make me wanted to rebel so much.. just for the sake of living my life to the fullest.

selfish me..

snippets of life..

2010-11-01T23:32:00.008+08:00

3 weeks class

three weekend from 8.30am til 5.00pm im stuck in BAR Council auditorium halfway head-hanging (*not head banging,ok) trying to stay awake...finally the torturous long weekend ended..thank God. & hopefully i pass..

well lets just said the life in KL is filled with food instead of outing..as human, we need food more than we need entertainment or friends...although i admit that all of us are just a lonely soul.

Vivo

im addicted to the spaghetti..i think this is the 2nd time in the month i went there.& both the time, i had spaghetti :P

some other food that the rest ordered. it was sometime ago so i dont really remember who had what..

Koryo (north korean food)

it is a swift moment that we decided to have korean food as dinner.. and we ended up in this restaurant in mont kiara..a north korean restaurant, judgin from the costume & the name of the restaurant..

the environment ok..the food, not the best that i had. it was ok. maybe im more a rich-flavoured kinda person so bland food doesnt really suited me..

honestly speaking, it wasnt worth my money for this meal...event eh street korean food taste better (look below)

Korean Street Food

this is also second time.but the 1st time *i think i posted about it previosuly* was in sunway one.this is outside sunway. where? i have no idea. gotta ask my super nice driver for bringin me to have such a nice food & let me have a super nice time..

too much food...and we ended up packing the jeon home..& i even did a free promo for Jay there :P & of course took some pictures and make iqa jealous ;)

short call

after short-call there are another 7 months to go..God bless.let it be a smooth ride along the way.

my filing partner got involved in accident...praying hard for her recovery.

shopping heaven

guess working with salary is not a good thing either..every month you are anticipating for that day so that you could pamper yourself for something. and in my case, i pampered myself with a lot other things...

the most important thing. without this, i could have die fighting with mushroom that growing on my head and in my room...

my new fury friend. if you;ve been following me since long long time ago, you will have known what this thing means to me...

a red diary/planner..

i was supposed to buy only this.but as usual, i couldnt fight the shoe devil when i saw another nice shoe.

and i ended up spending more money on it.. :P

and last a little new toy to add to my collection..havent start using it..
there are a few other clothes that i bought, but not gonna show it.
because i dont want to waste my bandwidth for it :P

ahhh......

2010-11-01T00:09:00.000+08:00

finally i have time to shout....
& i got a lot to shout-out loud...
but not today...
today no energy to shout anymore..
maybe tomorrow..

pull my head bald & crack my head open.

2010-10-21T18:11:00.002+08:00

1st of all, you will never able to guess where im logging in from...
in a student place where i wont ever possible study there...
with mosquito surrounding me since it is almost 630pm & dead hot here...

2ndly, congrats to me..streamyx not coverage, wimax no coverage, digi slow coverage & maxis 3G quota usage is not helping.....*clap clap clap*

3rdly, ilkap program sucks..it sucks my energy drain & flat..probably thats because it is adeline's birthday week..so a lil bit of celebration here & there...hopefully no another weekend like that or else i rather caught dead on the bed...*that is a peaceful way of dying, ya'know*

4th, just finished attending a so-called specialized seminar by the KL Bar when the content were almost the same that i had in family law's class...maybe i ought to share some tips with the readers when i got more time & free access to internet..not now, when im using other people laptop & having limited time.

5th, life sucks. bored me to hell & sleep has never been peaceful..

never ask why i have scars. i'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see*. by you asking, it created more scars and more things for me to wonder about...

*quoted from "Bleeding Love-Leona Lewis*

just a thought

2010-10-12T09:29:00.000+08:00

maybe im stressed.
maybe im just emo.
maybe im just tired.
one thousand and one things flew right through my brain..

i just need a person to talk to.
in the nights when i cant sleep.
i dont ask for more.
just a person that i can talk to.

disappointment..

2010-10-03T16:51:00.004+08:00

*if you cant read the small font, the express summary i can give you is that
JAY PARK'S FANMEETING IN MALAYSIA C.A.N.C.E.L.E.D*

there is no word to describe the feeling when i know this....
even 'disappointed' is not enough to explain it..
imagine i even give up going usher's concert for this FM...

Every Girl's Dream

2010-09-22T10:10:00.009+08:00

now that im working and meeting with all the people that i need to meet. and everyone has been so perfect. as perfect as they wanted to be seen..everyone is chasing the perfect little dream. and most importantly a kind soul told me something "you need to have a "xxxx" bag...if not, at least a branded bag.or else people will ignore you and look down on you"...now that the kind soul have enlighten me, i have been thinking "do i need it or not? i dont think i do because 1. i dont need it 2. where to get money for all this???"...

but then no harm in thinking right..dreaming the perfect dream..afterall, i am a girl. but what a girl really need to make the perfect dream??

item #1 to Girl's Perfect Dream
a BAG !!! what else is the most important one. you need it wherever you go..it is a must, it is a fashion, it is a trend, it is an accessory and it is an object to show off your style & wealth..artiste like Lindsay Lohan is especially well-known to have handbag as a must to her style...

to me, i dont need 100 bags...for now i just need a big enough bag for me to fill in all the rubbish that im carrying all the time to work and to court. 2 journal to jot down the timeline & notes, a files to put in all the important paper, a pencil-box and of course all those that are originally in my handbag ie. purse, coin purse, keys etc

item #2 to Girl's Perfect Dream

well let see..there are too much to be on the 'to-get'gadget' list..come on, we dont want to hear people saying girl fails in gadget..we want to shout it out loud 'says who'.....ok, dont bother with those comment.but i really need a mp3/ipod...i've been eying on the new ipod touch but heaven know what i could afford with my tiny-weeny paycheck...that wasnt even a proper paycheck just a dumb paper with money value for my petrol and my food consumption.barely left anything for anything else..

next next....still a gadget.a phone....*i know that wasnt a phone everyone want.but i never want what other wants.some of might dont even know what phone is this* let introduce this mobile-phone...this is the lastest android phone from SAMSUNG with super-amoled screen....search it up, you might fall in love with this before you get you hand on iphone....eh dont !!!! i want be the only one to own this phone...btw dont ask where is my previous phone..that phone is 3 years old already..broken a little due to carelessness and a bit lagged due to the heavy photos inside.but due date, that phone still amazing as it is my camera as well...took a lot of wonderful pictures for me...served me well....
whats next?? still gadget.but this time, it is more like a toy to me....*ta da da daa....* a camera....yes it is a toy to me.because i think i own more than 3 cameras.no telling exactly how much i have but lets just categorized it to digicam (*not mine, my dad passed it to me), DSLR (my most expensive possession,in monetary term), polaroid and a vintage (this is hell more worth but it is from my dad too).......camera is good..if you have been going through what i did, you will know how precious are those captures you took...every smile counts

item #3 to Girl's Perfect Dream

lets not start on the perfect house with the perfect wardrobe furnished with a good kitchen and a very comfortable bathroom...lets just skip because if then, i wont able to stop typing....trust me on that..inside the wardrobe, there will be on clothes, shoes and bag...and clutches....and the list goes on...

item #4 to Girl's Perfect Dream

this is something i will never afford..not at the moment..not in 5 years..probably in 10 years if i worked REALLY hard....my favourite : ferrari enzo ( as dream car..jahanam that car if i drive it around malaysia) & ALPHARD.....

item #5 to Girl's Perfect Dream

let just talk about something that i can afford and something that i need now, very much...a vacation...under the sunny sun..all of the sudden i want to go beach for a tan...as if im gonna sit under the sun applying sunblock...but then i need the shine..for all i care, it is a vacation !!!!

ps.: damn, it took me weeks just to get this post written up & posted...internet...

a day with internet

2010-09-18T23:55:00.003+08:00

yeah !!! internet....
hahaha it sounds like im had been staying in cave for a year and finally im back to civilization..
but it is the total reversal..
im in away from the civilization, away from the traffic, away from the people
but it is a place where im connected to the net..
*thats because i havent got internet connection in kl*
anyway, im gonna the whole 3 weeks in summary..
very brief with pictures..

spagetti session with Ian & my new nerd-glass after the interview..
there is something to celebrate, y'know...

a charity dinner when i went back hometown..

x'hwa & bao's bday celebration at 1utama's new york..

a korean lunch at Asian Avenue, Sunway Pyramid during the weekend after the raya...
i need some break after 2 weeks of working...LOL

1.Big Apple's donuts...
2.card holder that i just bought.
3. Jay Park's EP single.
4. a new non-fiction novel + a Dragon Ball manga to complete my collection

1. a detour to somewhere really near to KLCC.although it is not as comforting as Eye of Melaka in Melaka but still nice..
2. with Wina for lunch when we went filing
3. Jay Park;s poster that comes with the EP single..
4. a driving experience with the cows..although i saw them everytime i come back to hometown.

ok.orait.thats all.
end..

snippets of life

2010-09-10T00:30:00.002+08:00

current city: kuala lumpur
current status: single and available but now focusing on balancing my worklife
despair: got caught opening fb....
happiness: yet to be found

i started working but not yet file in the petition for chambering
new place looks awesome except that im paying for the empty room
somebody get me a new housemate for the empty room please
the awesome new place lacks of human feel
still not connected to the world because lack of internet
not lack, memang no connection
living a pitiful life as im counting every single penny im using

cant update as much as i want
:'(
nor can i keep update myself with jay stuff
super double :'(

money ah......

2010-09-04T22:40:00.003+08:00

MONEY :

definition ; A medium that can be exchanged for goods and services and is used as a measure of their values on the market, including among its forms a commodity such as gold, an officially issued coin or note, or a deposit in a checking account or other readily liquefiable account.

well, who doesnt know that?? there is even a sayings that goes "Money makes the world go round."......well you cant deny the power of money..i know it is not the most important thing in the whole world wide but it has a certain value that can makes your life better. when your life get better, you become happier.

many chose the path that i choose, for the so-called-glamorous-life. you know the old thinking that if you scores well in your exam, you must choose this life in order to life well later..well, let me just tell you it is not so glamorous....

you cant make a living. maybe just enough for you to eat.dont even think of getting extra to spend on the cloth.then again there goes people saying, it is only for the first few months because it is training period..

but then other people in other profession already start counting their wealth and smelling the dirty smell of the money...

some can even start piling up the clothes and shoes in their wardrobe hoping one day they might end up with a walk-in wardrobe like Mariah carey does..

well im not surprise if some already starting their investment plan to get a house by hillside..btw i totally adore the Cullens house..

and im left penniless at this moment.counting every single cents i spent so that i dont over-spend. even when i havent started working or getting the first pay..but i already know where the 1st pay-cheque gonna end up. and im wondering when i can actually cash-in the cheque that will sleep safely in the bank account...seems like impossible at this moment..

to make it worse, i just crashed the car...damn, wasted another a few hundreds to fix it....so the question is "MONEY ar, where i can more of you????"

nuffnang is not helping much you know....i;ve been blogging for years and i hvnt even gotten the 1st pay.......*sob sob but then not like i really promote my blog*

any other way to find money????

i-City

2010-08-31T18:18:00.003+08:00

hmmmm..
izzit too late to wish Abby happy birthday....
but then i did wished her on that day...
but then do get proud babe, i think this is the 1st time i do birthday dedication on my blog...

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY !!!!

although your age probably is not that much like the candles on the cupcake..
*no worries, i will keep it secret*
:P

after fetching her, we went to BigFood....
to buka puasa..

yeah, look at the big portion of foods we had....very full indeed...

next destination..

you probably would have guessed it right??
if you dont, lets reveal the answer...

i-City...

honestly i was tad disappointed with it.
but then Abby said it was prettier the last time she came..
maybe the timing i came wasnt right.

the decorations were far wide spread..
not in one place..
walking from one place to one place, there are only a little thing to watch.

and not to mention, no DSLR.
only a sucky camera and an Omnia..
even polaroid is not helping, because of the dark background..

i closed my eyes !!!!!!!.......................

my polaroid got a new look thanks to someone...*i dun think i should mention your name here, but then you know who much i love ya.....thanks*

anyway, i got a surprise present for myself, Iqa and Ian...

hahahahahaha...im happy, even they might not like the present but i dont care..
i like it, and they gotta like it no matter what...
im evil...

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happy birthday again...opps belated..

p.s: there is something wrong with the setting of my blog again..it cuts off my picture..anyone know how to fix it, beside resizing my picture??? solution with the html......

no end...

2010-08-25T22:46:00.004+08:00

i hated this the most
the feeling of being unable to do anything.
standing at a place that you cant do anything.
it is like being chased to the cliff..

it is getting complicated,
as complicated as the road in KL can be to me..
the arrows on the sign are showing to a million places
but i ended up getting lost..
with the arrows showing around, i know im not totally lost
thus i cant give up.
not MICHELLE YAP
but i wish the arrow will just disappeared.

no where to go anymore..
no road to take anymore..
completely lost.
so that i can just break down and cry..
wouldnt that be easier...

at this moment,
i wished im a mirror that can break into million pieces.
and unable to be put back together anymore..

at this moment,
i wished i was sucked into the blackhole
and never found my back.

the darkness just dont go away in my skies
everyone been saying the sun will come out after the rain goes.
the night will the way to the day
but how come my sky still remained dark..

sleeping beauty has it easily..
laid there sleeping til her prince charming found his way to her.
i wasnt wishing for a prince charming.
im just thinking could i sleep and never wake up
waking up to this reality life is hard.

im just asking for some simple things.
im not asking to have all the things in the world
all the diamonds, all the stones
im just asking for some stability and senses.
but God always has its way to make me lose it
and often i found myself standing at the edge again.

am i at fault?
for trying to be the best that I COULD...
but what i could doesnt mean what others want
others want a PERFECTIONIST
and the best i could is not that.
how can i go on when my confidence isnt even there..

when i can found my road??
a road that i can imagine myself doing it for a long long time..
and doing it happily...

~♥~::sWeEt & s0uR Sn0wY IsLanD::~♥~

When hate turns love

band-aid

forgotten

Register

Hello

gong hei !!!

hearing voices

its december

songs of the week #2

jay-lousy

songs of the week

one's limit

Nice quote

dream 101

so dead.

i promise

will be missed dearly...

did i or did i not..

bath-tub

ground zero

to fall in love, again..

im a proud omma..

the O me

what it means?

single me

Hate-list

pure JYJ

Guilty pleasure

misled again T.T

weird hobby of mine

:'(

dumb blonde

naver search..

TT.TT

MR removed

are they real?

are you human?

5.25

24th

re-define

miss ripley..

problem..problem

brain control~

foul mood

Man No. #1

falling in l♥ve

little ♥

new colour

Dragon boat festival

b2st BEAST

truth hurts

blogger Michelle Yap

N.T.G

Happy Mother's Day

Current joy

im just another frog

"i am dead.thank you"

trend vs satisfaction

SOS

Pity them

Life is a circle

On the go~~~

one last moment

sleep

back to the basics..

Love??

CNY confession

journey to hell

Howls over dog-beater video

By JOSHUA FOONGjoshuafoong@thestar.com.my

so low

no.13

on tv again

buttache

im not SUPERMAN!!

gift of surprise

time to wake up...

goodbye

morning, sunday 2010 !!

By JOSHUA FOONG
joshuafoong@thestar.com.my